Tiara Ashleigh Blogs

3 Minute Low Calorie Lunch

2011-06-05T16:41:00.000-04:00

Wish List for 06.02.11

2011-06-02T12:32:00.001-04:00

1. Tanda: Clear™ Acne Light Therapy Treatment (Sephora)

2. Tanda: Clear™ Acne Light Therapy Treatment Head (Sephora)

3. Chaacoca: The Works - Argan Oil Complete Skin and Hair Care Set (HauteLook.com)

4. Crown Brush: 88 Neutral Eyeshadow Palette (HauteLook.com)

Today I feel like poop so I decided to do a beauty wish list just to raise my spirits!

I had originally seen the Tanda light treatments on Dr. Oz and it completely interested me. As most of you know, I have extremely problematic skin and I have gone through products galore. I believe that I have honestly spent more than my current net worth on acne medications with no luck whatsoever. Therefore, I have been lead to believe that light therapy is the only thing that will work for me! It's a revolutionary idea and definitely something that everyone should try out.

I've never heard of Chaacoca before but they do have a large array of argan oil hair & skin care products. I tried out argan oil last Christmas for a few months and it worked fairly well with my hair...though I do not know what kind of result it would have on my skin. Regardless, HauteLook.com has an amazing sale going on with all of Chaacoca's products so you should head on over there and check it out!

As for the Crown Brush palette, there's not much that has to be said. 88 colours for $21.00, YES PLEASE! Especially in the neutral tones, it's perfect for this upcoming season and if you're interested in performing neutral looks with your make up (which I definitely am).

xoxo

Curling Hair with Curling Iron - Tutorial

2011-06-01T23:30:00.001-04:00

Wish List for 06.01.11

2011-06-01T23:00:00.001-04:00

Pants: Antique Rivet - Trish Straight Leg Jeans In Twilight

Shoes: Adrienne Vittadini - Apple Pump In Taupe And Gray

Cover-up (dress): Despi Swimwear - Red Chantilly Embroidered Lace Trim Coverup

Purse: London Fog - Jessica Tote In Black

All of the above images are courtesy of HauteLook.com and BeyondTheRack.com

I was searching through my typical sales sites and unfortunately I wasn't able to find a shirt that I wanted, so instead I substituted a shirt with this adorable cover up dress. Not only would I wear that to the beach but I would most definitely wear it as a summer dress as well. Throw on some gladiator sandals and you have a whole new outfit!

P.S. Don't mind my magnetic lasso tool fail, I'm slightly exhausted and impatient :p

xoxo

Wish List for 05.31.11

2011-05-31T19:00:00.001-04:00

This is a fun little project that I encourage all of you to try at least once in your life, project wish list! I am by no means a shopaholic but I definitely do like to treat myself to clothing and shoes and accessories a little too much sometimes. So this is partially a fun idea and part a self experiment to see if looking/browsing through clothing will prevent me from actually making purchases.

So without further adieu, here is my wish list from HauteLook.com:

Shirt: Threads 4 Thought - Solid stripe sunset beach top
Pants: Decades Denim - Nadja super long skinny jeans
Shoes: Mystique - Gladiator with ankle strap sandal
Purse: Elise Hope - Buckle and pockets satchel

xoxo

April Faves

2011-05-30T16:44:00.000-04:00

All of the stuff I fell in love with throughout April, check out the complete list below:

Katy Perry OPI Black Shatter Nail Polish
Burt's Bees Honey Lip Balm
Desert Essence Organic Body Care Lotion - Coconut
L'Oreal Paris Elnett Stronghold Hairspray
Remington WDF-3600 Smooth and Silky Shaver
Vichy Normaderm Anti-Imperfections Cream
Urban Decay Eyeshadow Primer Potion

xoxo

May Haul

2011-05-30T16:37:00.002-04:00

Just a short video explaining some of the stuff that I picked up during the last couple of weeks of May!

xoxo

Summer Sales!

2011-05-30T16:34:00.000-04:00

After browsing stores for about 3 days straight I took advantage of a ton of sales. I'm going to hook you guys up with a list, just in case you're in the mood for picking up your entire summer wardrobe for less than you would expect!

Bluenotes: 2 for $10 shorts (I got black and grey)
Sirens: 2 for $20 jean shorts (watch out for their maxi dresses, wayyy inexpensive)
Urban Behaviour: 2 for $20 jean shorts, plus a ton of $10 shirts!
American Eagle: I shopped the sales rack, picked up a $15 white shirt & used my all access pass. Total came to around $13 I believe!
Gap: They had a 40% off sale during mother's day weekend, I picked up some jeans

And that's all that I can remember for now, haha!

xoxo

Herbal Essences - Hello Hydration Review

2011-05-11T23:31:00.000-04:00

As a person who reviews beauty products, I must stay true to my roots and provide another review for all of you girls out there :)

I recently received Herbal Essences’ Hello Hydration duo (both the shampoo and conditioner). I am well known for my curly hair and as you all know, curly hair is notoriously known for being dry so hello, I definitely need hydration.

At first I wasn’t expecting a huge difference, though I am a big fan of Herbal Essences and their products, I hadn’t found any product that could tame my wild locks. All I have to say is that I was pleasantly surprised! I have tried moroccan oil, I have tried Redken’s products, I have tried leave in conditioners but nothing seemed to work until this power duo came into my life. I know that it has been around for a couple of years in several places around the world but I had never taken the chance to purchase it.

Let’s talk about what I find important in my hair care routine(s) and how it applies to Hello, Hydration.

Lather

I, for one, like to have my hair completely engulfed in shampoo to ensure that every single strand is getting cleaned. When a shampoo doesn’t lather, it makes me feel like my hair isn’t clean enough and therefore, I end up using twice the amount that I should which results in me finishing the product before it’s time. Needless to say, this shampoo definitely lived up to my expectations and it lathers like a miracle.

Scent

Naturally, we all look for something that smells good to put in our hair and something that will give us a long lasting scent. Even now…several hours after I have shampooed my hair, I can still smell the fruity, clean, and crisp aroma that the shampoo and conditioner. All I have to say is mmm.

Side Effects

When I say “side effects” I’m referring to what happens to your hair after you shower. Sometimes you experience those which make your hair dull and bland, others will make yours greasy and limp and then once in a blue moon you find a miracle worker that gives you long lasting shine and basically, hair freedom. Herbal Essences’ products normally give me a long lasting shine and they definitely help to improve my hair structure but for some reason, this time around it’s not as noticeable. My hair definitely isn’t greasy after use but it’s not as if I just walked out of the salon either. I can say that it has provided my hair with a reasonable amount of conditioning to where I don’t have as many “fly aways.”

Overall, if you’re looking for a great every (other) day product to clean your hair and leave you smelling great, I’d advise you to pick up these two amazing products and see for yourself. I definitely recommend it to those who have curly hair and who are looking for relief from the every day stress of frizzy and dry hair!

Low-Calorie Shrimp Stir Fry!

2011-03-22T23:29:00.003-04:00

What you need:

2 heads - broccoli
1/2 cup - shrimp
1 cup - rice
(Any other vegetables you enjoy)
1 tbsp - olive oil
1 tsp - hot sauce
1 tsp - barbecue sauce
1 tsp - garlic plus/garlic powder/any other seasoning
salt & pepper to taste

Directions:

1. Put one cup of water to boil on the stove (I usually set it to medium/high)

2. Once the water has begun to boil, add 1 cup of rice to the water and cover with a lid

3. Turn stove on to heat up skillet used for shrimp/vegetables (I usually set it to medium)

4. Wash/cut up pieces of broccoli so that they’re more “bite size”

5. Put 1 tbsp of olive oil onto the skillet

6. Put 1/2 cup of shrimp and 2 heads of broccoli onto skillet

7. Keep stirring the rice and stirring the shrimp/broccoli mix

8. Add desired seasoning to shrimp & broccoli

9. Once the vegetables and shrimp have become softer, add bbq sauce and/or hot sauce to mixture

10. Once the rice has finished cooking, place onto a plate and add vegetables/shrimp on top of the rice

Voila!

Walmart/Sephora haul!

2011-03-09T14:59:00.008-05:00

Hello lovelies :]

I have disappeared from existence, I know...but I come back with great news! I'm going to go through a recent 'haul' that I was lucky enough to have the funding for, haha!

So I've been looking for a hand/body cream that works wonders for me for ages and I seriously could not find anything at all! Luckily, I was browsing through Walmart's selection ('cause I don't intend on spending 60 bucks on a hand cream) and I found this Desert Essence Organics cream. It is honestly the best cream that I have ever tried in my entire life. I have EXTREMELY oily facial skin but my hands can get really dry and this cream brought life to them all over again. I'm also not a fan of butters but it's more so along the lines of a lotion and it's really creamy. The awesome thing about it is that it's organic and vegan! It has no: parabens, sodium lauryl, laureth sulfates, phthalates, artificial fragrances or colours, silicones, EDTA, glycol or petroleum based ingredients. I only know about 3 of those ingredients but it says that it's healthy...so it's healthy! Another thing is that I'm not too keen on the smell of coconut but this doesn't smell like an overwhelmingly in your face kind of Caribbean coconut. It's really played down and kind of fresh, I love it to death.

Now everyone's been talking about nude nail polish colours and how the understated colour is just perfect for this season. I was really worried about picking this up because I have such a dark skin colour and nudes don't look that great on my nails but this colour is perfect. It coincides with my skin very well and it doesn't look to blah but it also doesn't stand out a ton. I picked it up for around $3.98 at Walmart, the same time that I bought the Organic skin cream. Yeah, I just made my fiance dig through the trash to find the receipt for you guys! Ha. ;) The nail polish is made by Rimmel and it's called Bare Naked, #200 from the Lasting Finish PRO line. Even if you don't have dark skin, the understated tone will definitely blend well but still pop out at the same time.

Now onto the foundation. I have a really big problem with spending a lot of money on my make up but yet I seem to do it every time that I need some. Today I decided to tried to go with a new company that I have yet to test out though I've heard rave reviews of their products. I picked up Make Up For Ever's HD foundation from Sephora today. After testing a bunch of foundations, this one seemed to feel the most light and looked the most matte out of all of the ones I tried. The only thing that I'm afraid of is that I don't want it to clog my pores to the end of the world. I have really bad/acne prone skin as it is and I really just want something that'll cover up the little mishaps that I have on my face but yet still allow it to breathe throughout the day. Hopefully it will work well with my primer and make a non oily finish on my skin. On the box it says that it's dermatologist tested and completely oil free but we'll see how that works out!

And lastly, I received a sample of Marc Jacobs' daisy perfume. It smells chic and fresh, totally something that I'd wear on a day to day basis!

I'll make sure to do a follow up review on these products just to keep you guys informed about how everything's going!

Tata babes! xx

Christmas nails!

2010-12-11T22:26:00.001-05:00

I was trying to think of something that would combine my need for glam and my need for nail art.....so here we are, avid readers!

THE NEW AND IMPROVED TAD Co.

I hope you're all as excited as I am!

xoxo.

Hello hello hello!

2010-11-08T15:12:00.006-05:00

I'm so sorry, once again, for my lack of blogging.

I took an impromptu vacation to see my fiancee in the US of A and I just returned a couple of days ago. There was a lot of video games, movies, and food. Of course we went to a football game and a part of a hockey game (go Titans/Preds!)

But overall, most of our days looked like this:

Want to know one of the things that I adore more than anything about the United States? SHOPPING! Inexpensive delectable shopping, it was wonderful.

While I was abroad I picked up a bunch of clothing articles, which I will not bore you with at this moment in time. Then when we returned back to my home soil (Canada) I picked up even more goodies. Lucky for you guys, I'm going to talk about a few things that I picked up from Trade Secrets, The Body Shop, and Lush!

First I'm going to talk about Moroccan Oil.

*****

Last time I went to the hairdresser, she advised me to use this little miracle due to the fact that my hair is a partial disgrace and completely dead. I ignored her advice and didn't think much of it until tomorrow. I went to Trade Secrets and picked up a bottle of this little miracle, though it was expensive (around $17.50 for a small bottle), I'm sure that it will be completely worth it. As I'm writing this right now, it's soaking into my needy strands of hair and once I finish the treatment and style my hair, I'm going to be excited to see just how well it works when it's used as a self remedy. It smells delicious and unlike many other oils that I've used, it doesn't make your hands feel like you just dipped them in a deep fryer after application. Fingers crossed.

The second thing that I'm going to talk about is DeoDry.

*****

I'll confide in this blog momentarily and let you all know that yes, I do have an extensive problem with perspiration and I'm sure that a lot of other women out there do too. I've tried every deodorant from Degree to Lady Speedstick and none of them do anything for me. I recently tried the new clinical strength deodorants that have been released but as predicted, they don't work as well. I moseyed on down to The Body Shop the other day and picked up a deodorant that they had on the shelf. It smells terribly but it works well on keeping my perspiration down, most days. Although I was extremely hopeful at first, most days isn't good enough when you're looking for something that works every day.

The third thing that I'm EXTREMELY dissappointed about is this sugar body scrub that I managed to pick up from Lush on Saturday. Though it smelt delectable, the product wasn't what I had expected. The entire store was a zoo due to the fact that it was their grand reopening. I was happy with the fact that when I purchased something, I had the chance to win a free gift. I bought the sugar scrub and went home, pleasantly excited to take a shower and use it. I suppose I wasn't using it properly or something because as soon as I got into the shower, it melted. I was running around trying to figure out where to put it in order to keep it from completely disintegrating down the drain. I finally threw it back in the bag, put it in a tupperware container and froze it for 2 days in hopes that it would mould back together. Unfortunately it proceeded to look like this:

I'm usually an extremely avid fan of Lush and their products but unfortunately this is what I was left with at the end of my ONE shower.

Dissapointed!

*****

xoxo

More nails!

2010-08-15T23:45:00.003-04:00

I'm going to make this really short!

In my last post I was raving about the pearls that I bought with the rest of my deco kit, well, I finally used them!

Silly me put the lime fake nails on the day before I had work (and it's mandatory to have blank nails) so I had to sacrifice them for the time being and I ended up making these ones tonight, check them out and tell me what you think!

eBay Love!

2010-08-13T00:53:00.009-04:00

Good evening/early morning ladies and gents!

I apologize for my serious lack of blogging but as of late, I've been extremely busy. I recently returned from a long needed vacation to the US to stay with my (at that time) boyfriend and I got engaged! So if you could please excuse my lack of keeping this blog together, that'd be awesome! :p

Now, for the good stuff!

When I come across a limited amount of money, I for some reason cannot save, I MUST spend and thanks to eBay I was lucky enough to find a plethora of things for a dollar to two dollars. I spent 25 dollars on a bunch of goodies so let me give you a sneak peek on what kind of nail art I bought!

I bought these cute multi coloured rhinestones that at first I thought were simple circles but when they arrived, I was quite surprised to see that they were in the shape of hearts! I'm going to be brutally honest with you guys and let you know that I wasn't too thrilled at the fact that they were hearts, but after careful consideration I realized how much cuter they were this way!

(Purchased via: net.top)

I also bought these delicate yet sophisticated pearls that I cannot wait to use! I'm thinking of buying more of them so I can continuously have my nails decorated with them. I was completely satisfied with them! (Purchased via: au.supershop)

Alongside those two, I purchased simple silver rhinestones that are definitely circular so I'm excited to use those as well. (Purchased via: e-export)

Last but not least (tied for favourite with the pearls) are the fruit slices! For a dollar I was gifted with nearly 10 bags of different fruit slices. I immediately had to try them out! They came with strawberries, kiwi, bananas, watermelons and so much more! (Purchased via: ezbuy111)

So for your entertainment, I think I'll show you a little DIY that I managed to throw together in a matter of minutes. Unfortunately, I am looking way too haggard to actually film what I was doing, but hopefully my brief explanation and a couple of pictures will suffice!

First, I found my fake nails (that I bought for like 5 dollars in Tennessee) and I coated them a couple of times with white nail polish. A lot of people don't like white nail polish solely because it may look like white out, but honestly, I adore it.

After putting on the nail polish, I laid the fruit slices out and tried to figure out which ones to put on. Originally, I was planning on using the strawberries but I was going for more of a 'crisp' summer look so I settled with the kiwis for now. I then decided on which colour of rhinestones to try out and I decided to stick with the green and the silver hearts.

After choosing my pattern and trying it out on paper first, I then glued the art onto the nails and just went for it! A lot of people don't trust nail deco because the jewels have the tendency to fall off but I made sure that I used a ton of nail glue AND top coat to ensure their survival!

This is what they looked like at the end:

Overall, I'm pretty thrilled about how they turned out (considering that I haven't decorated fake nails in over a year).

Just you all wait until I do my second blog on my second wave of purchases!

Until then,

xoxo

Florida.

2010-06-16T00:22:00.003-04:00

Here's something a little different for your viewing pleasure, to my avid readers.

I recently went on vacation to Destin, Florida and basically spent a week at the most beautiful beach. The couple that we were staying with has military benefits and so we were gained access into the military's private beach which allowed us to enjoy the beauty with only a limited amount of people.

We were so ecstatic about it that we actually went to the beach the first day that we arrived.

The sand was white, the water was warm and the waves were intense. I myself am not the type of person who is going to go out of their way to get crushed by the killer waves but I most certainly did, I was even thrown around in a few curls once in a while.

Just a quick update, telling you guys that if you haven't gone on vacation yet, get on it! It eliminates a copious amount of stress!

Sex and the City 2

2010-05-30T11:49:00.003-04:00

One thing that I can proudly say is that I am an avid Sex and the City fan, though a new fan, still an avid one. When I first heard about the movie coming out, I immediately popped the entire TV series into my dvd player and watched it without remorse for an entire weekend/half of the week. I then saw the self titled movie and was blown away, hoping that they would release a second one to satiate my taste buds and they most definitely did!

Last night, my boyfriend and I went to see the second Sex and the City and as the opening credits rolled, I could feel the hair on the back of my neck stand up. We sat there for the entire 2 and a half hours, absolutely drawn to the screen.

All of the original cast was there, including Anthony, Aidan (yes, AIDAN), Smith Jared, Brady, and Charlotte's adopted daughter, Lilly. Of course there was also, Carrie, Samantha, Charlotte, Harry, Miranda, and my personal favourite, the ever so suave Mr. Big (John Preston). I loved that, I extremely dislike it when the sequels of movies contain a different cast (especially when it comes to re-casting the children who played in the first film).

The plot was a typical Sex and the City plot, full of fashion, love, sex (thanks to the lovely Samantha Jones), laughs, tears, and friendship. There weren't very many twists though, it was all as typical as a movie could be but something about the film made me not even think about how over done the plot was. They also had a few cameos from some well known people in the movie/music world which I enjoyed immensely for the ten to fifteen seconds that they were seen.

The fashion, oh lord the fashion. I think for this film, the director realized how much of an influence the fashion in the series has on the show itself and so they focussed on that aspect more than anything. The 4 best friends go through a series of outfit changes, even when they find themselves in the middle of the desert! (That wasn't a big spoiler, I promise ;]) I absolutely loved the clothing in the movie, from Christian Dior to Valentino everything that I saw was outrageous, flashy, and fresh.

Overall, I would recommend this movie to anyone. It would be enjoyable even if you didn't watch Sex and the City/know anything about the movie. It's a good film to see with your girlfriends or even with your boyfriend (like I did) and it will not fail to disappoint.

Out of 5 stars, I give Sex and the City 2, FIVE.

*****

P.s. I'm on vacation, guys, so updates/entries might take a little longer to be posted than expected!

John Mayer Trio

2010-05-12T21:13:00.002-04:00

A few years ago I was completely focussed on 'metal music' and everything associated with it but as time went on, listening to screaming and gutterals tired my ear drums so I tried a new genre, something that I had never thought I'd indulge in. Adult Alternative. I know, I know, genres of music can be a very touchy subject so for all of you hardcore music fans out there, be lenient while reading this blog!

My musical preference revolved around Bring Me the Horizon, Dance Gavin Dance, Gallows, anything that had inward growls or 'dirty' breakdowns. I found my rescue within John Mayer, John Mayer Trio, John Butler Trio, James Morrison, and Xavier Rudd. All of those 5 artists changed my opinion on more somber music and definitely made my life a lot better!

This blog usually revolves around lifestyle choices/advice/reviews on products that I've tried before but let me tell you, music can change the world if everyone were to just give it a chance.

John Mayer takes notes and strings them together in such a delicate way that you can actually feel the emotion flaring through his nerves. When he sings, you indulge yourself into this world that he creates for you, you lose yourself in his verses, find yourself singing along with his choruses and pressing 'repeat' on iTunes.

John Butler Trio amazes you with their amazing guitar work, how their fingers glide along the fret board and how they softly pluck the chords that they're meant to play.

James Morrison drags you down into the earth with his homely voice and his gliding voice that you can't help but need over and over again.

And Xavier Rudd keeps you guessing, keeps your ears on the edge of 'their seats', if you will.

In a nutshell, give those 5 artists a listen at work, on a jog, while you're on a road trip, anywhere! Feel your body melt and your brain be at ease for a little while, trust me, it helps!

Here are a few samples from John Butler Trio and John Mayer to entice your curiosity!

John Mayer - Free Fallin'

John Butler Trio - Ocean

(If you're looking for more music reccommendations, check out my underground music blog, Sounds. Link in the right side bar!)

Metal Black Cross Earrings.

2010-04-23T22:12:00.006-04:00

Hey guys! I know that it's been a while but I had officially run out of funding and you know what that means? That means a lack of products to review! So luckily, I've found a new love for ebay.ca and I came across this awesome deal. Usually when I'm purchasing products on ebay I tend to sway moreso towards the products that are the least expensive and that derive from Hong Kong. The awesome part about that is that they're amazing quality for a low price!

With that being said, I found these lovely beauties about a week ago and I just HAD to have them for a low price of 6 USD;

Though I am slightly disappointed (their advertising image made the earrings seem a lot bigger than they actually are) I'm extremely happy with the quality of the jewellery! They're durable and I'm pretty sure that the colouring on them won't fade, I'm sure that we'll figure that out soon enough though! I myself have purchased jewellery of the same quality for nearly 20x more money in Canada, so I'm ecstatic to have found these.

They came securely wrapped in bubble wrap, alongside their individual packaging, they also threw in that delicious little baggie that I can keep them in if I decide to change them throughout the day!

I bought them from Ka Li Accessories which you can find at the link below;

http://stores.ebay.com/Ka-Li-Accessories

They have a ton of other jewellery ranging from earrings to rings and even including decorative bra straps! You should definitely look into purchasing something from them if you're looking for an edgy and trendy vibe!

Out of 5 stars, I rate these earrings a definite 5!

*****

Transformers, dresses in disguise?

2010-03-13T03:39:00.004-05:00

This video was released a few years ago via Style.com and I honestly do not know what to say about it! I know that fashion is constantly changing and therefore this video is way out dated, but I just HAD to share it with you guys! Tell me what you think. I'm not sure if I'm ready to handle clothes that do all the work for my guy ;]

Knitting! Another healthy lifestyle choice.

2010-03-08T22:42:00.004-05:00

I know you're already freaked out by the title, ladies and gents, but hear me out and listen well.

We all know that during the Olympics (or any other time in the day where you need something to do), there are teams that we don't really want to see race but yet we cannot change the channel. That happened to me during the two amazing weeks that Canada (kicked ass) competed in the Olympics. The problem that I had was that I didn't have something to entertain myself with in between our races. That's when my Grandmother introduced me to a whole new world that I hadn't been a part of until now. Knitting.

I know, I know, it's something that we've all been told is for 'the elderly' but trust me, it's trendy! A lot of younger people are knitting these days so not all hope is lost. For example, most of us are aware of internet celeb, Hanna Beth.

Well it just so happens that her best friend, Ivey Indian is also a knitter, as seen by this photo:

There you are, hard evidence that knitting isn't only reserved for our Grandparents!

I myself started working on a scarf that I intend to give to my mother. The one thing that I enjoy the most about knitting is the fact that it gives me peace of mind. It's the only thing that I can involve myself in that allows everything else in the world to be shut off. Aside from my meditation (which I have also been doing on a regular basis), knitting has been a god send and I absolutely recommend it to anyone who wants a good way to de-stress.

The only rough thing is starting out. When I first started, I was missing knits and the scarf wasn't straight at all, it was such a mess! But the wonderful thing about yarn is that it is 100% reusable! You can screw up as many times as you want and all you have to do is unwind it and start all over. That's why I'd advise you to take your time if your a beginner and more than half way through your art, you wouldn't want to waste all of that time!

So in conclusion, I just wanted to give you guys a brief update/a good idea as to how you can spend your free time at a cheap cost!

Knitting is love, indulge.

*****

amika:stylers

2010-02-28T11:01:00.005-05:00

My parents generally tend to give me extraordinary stocking stuffers for Christmas and this happens to be one of them. A company named amika makes a variety of hair styling products ranging from hair straighteners/curlers to hair extensions.

Their stylers come in a variety of colours including: pink, midnight black, cheetah print, zebra print, purple, and even giraffe print. I love how exotic companies can get with even the most simple of products.

I myself have the midnight black ceramic styler as portrayed by the image below:

The only difference between mine and the photo is that my ceramic

plates (the gold coloured plates on the inside of the straightener) are black.

They also provide their customers with an interesting product called wet to dry stylers and they are just as their name sounds. You can leave your hair wet and straighten it right away without having to worry about burning/damaging your hair greatly. I myself am a perpetrator of this because if I straighten my hair when it's dry, it tends to become increasingly greasy over a short period of time. They also come with nano technology which amazingly kills 99.9% of bacteria that could be growing in your hair! Who would have known? A straightener that you can use on wet hair that ALSO kills bacteria. How innovative!

That is a screen shot of their solid gold plated wet to dry styler.

Alongside their straighteners they also have hair care products like hair cream and hair masks. I myself haven't tried those product before but from use of their hair straighteners, I can assure you that they must work wonders! Their sales associates provide you with extraordinary service alongside their extraordinary products. Each straightener has a different effect on each person's hair. They have specified straighteners for the different racial backgrounds of their customers and the associates can assist you with finding the right straightener for you! They also provide you with a free demo of what the products can do to your hair and how they can help.

The midnight black straightener that I own works wonders, to say at the least. The straightener can reach up to 30 degrees celsius and it uses your own hairs natural oils to stimulate the roots and encourage healthy growth. The ceramic plates are 100% ceramic, unlike competitors brands who only coat the plates with ceramic.

The only thing that may seem troublesome is the amount of money that they cost. You can find similar products by rival companies that are way more expensive and you can also find shoddy straighteners that cost a lot less. Amika's straighteners range from $180-$250 but they are worth every cent.

I was told that mine was bought at a kiosk in Square One which is a shopping mall around here but I'm sure that there are several other distributors throughout North America.

Out of 5 stars, I rate Amika's products at a complete 5.

*****

$180-$250 USD

Can be bought at any kiosk in any mall where available. You can also purchase these products online through their company website: amika:stylers

Healthy Lifestyle Choices!

2010-02-19T21:55:00.008-05:00

Hi guys! I've been on a Dr. Oz binge for the past week and for those of you who haven't heard of this miracle worker, he's a doctor who hosts his own TV show talking about the dirty little secret questions that we all have that we never ask. It has gotten me thinking about what I can do to make my life healthier and about what I can do to make my life more enjoyable. So instead of our routine product review, we're going to do an advice post today about things that you can do to make your body love you.

The following ideas are in no particular order and keep in mind that everyone's body is different!

1. Exercise! Taking care of yourself on a daily basis can prove to be a pain considering that in this day and age, everything is so fast paced and we're always on the move. Taking the time to work on your muscles/work off your unwanted weight will prove to be a miracle wonder, not only to those who you see every day but also for your mind/body/soul. I personally prefer to enact in yoga/meditation rather than the hardcore physical workouts such as the P90X.

Here's a link for a yoga instructor named Tara Stiles who's based out of New York. I love her work and I enjoy her routines immensely.

http://www.youtube.com/user/TaraStilesYoga

2. Eating healthily. I know, I know, we hear about this every time we google those magic weight loss secrets. I myself have issues with this task but when I do have my spurts of healthy eating, my body thanks me in so many different ways. Try replacing your red meat with protein enriched 'fake' meat, it tastes the same but has healthier calories. One discovery that I made during the summer of 2008 was Licks Nature Burgers. They taste exactly the same as a fatty red meated hamburger but they're way healthier.

Another tip that I'd like to add is that you can have a healthy snack and still have that kick of sugary sweetness that you crave so much. Try having celery with a little bit of peanut butter and sprinkle some sugar on the top, it'll give you the vegetable aspect alongside something that'll tickle your taste buds.

3. Meditation. I know this may sound rather cliche but it's something that we all know we desperately need on a daily basis. Having to work for a minimum of 8 hours a day and then having to come home and fix a household up for the rest of the family is a stresser on anyone's life. Therefore, take a couple of minutes during your lunch break or just before that very important meeting of yours and sit in complete silence. Every time an intruding thought comes into your head, just concentrate on your breathing, in and out. Giving yourself that peace of mind will help you in ways that you'll never believe.

4. Bathe/cleanse on a daily basis. Yes, I'm sure that many of you do shower on a regular basis to ensure your hygiene but I'm sure that you have those days where you're just way too lazy to do so, or those nights where you've been partying too hard that you're too lazy to take off your make up. Always, ALWAYS have a shower on a regular basis. This is so important because the way that people perceive you is the main thing that forms your reputation. More importantly, cleanse your face on a regular basis. You may not be cursed with the dreaded acne like many teens in the world, but it can and will happen if you don't take care of your skin. I posted a blog post here previously with some recommended facial cleansing remedies which you can check out in the link below.

http://misstiaraashleigh.blogspot.com/2010/02/skin-care-army.html

5. Take care of your physical appearance. The trash bag lady look may work for Mary Kate and Ashley Olsen but we all know that not all of us can rock that style. If you're going to leave the house, make sure that you're well put together and that you don't look like you just crawled out of the sewer. It's quite easy to do this on a small budget as well considering that we have been graced with thrift stores all over the country. Thirty dollars can get you several pairs of pants and several nice shirts if you know where to go. Personally I recommend Black Market Vintage Clothing if you're into the hipster scene, there's also Value Village, Salvation Army, and Goodwill. The wonderful thing about thrift stores is that you can get discounted clothes and no one will even know where you got it from!

6. Live, laugh, and love. Take it easy, relax, deep breaths help with this remedy as well. Living, laughing, and loving are all actions that come naturally to humans but we need to make sure that we're capable of accomplishing them properly. Live your life to the fullest, take those chances, don't be held back by boundaries (just don't do anything illegal). Laugh at things that are funny, even if you're in a miserable mood and don't feel like it. Let it all out and let your eyes water, there's nothing better than a wholesome laugh. Finally, love. Open your heart and let those closest to you in, engulf everyone in passion and let them know how you feel. Enjoy your life, we only have one of them.

Out of 5 stars, I rate healthy lifestyle choices at a 5.

*****

Burt's Bees Lip Balm

2010-02-12T19:12:00.003-05:00

Okay so it's definitely winter time as all of us have noticed. Whether because you've gotten a copious amount of snow or whether your bones are chilled all the way through with these harsh temperatures. A common casualty of the winter are our lips! Some of us take care of them to keep them lush and plump year round but most of us forget that once our little smackers get dry, they stay dry until we take action to make them better.

I've tried various 'lip savers' from various companies such as Blistex, Chap Stick, and Bonnebelle just to name a few, but I have never used such a delightful substance as Burt's Bees Beeswax Lip Balm.

Personally, my lips get terrorized in the winter and wetting them with my own saliva doesn't do them any better, as we all know. They get extremely dry which makes it difficult for me to apply lipstick and/or lip gloss without it looking caked and gross.

Burt's Bees is made out of beeswax and it provides a soothing minty scent once applied. You can immediately feel it start to work on all of your cracks and dryness as it implants itself in every single nook and cranny and gives you a comforting tingly sensation. Another thing is that it stays there until you take it off, I noticed that with many other lip balms they tend to rub themselves off throughout the day but not with Burt's Bees. It also works extremely fast! You'll begin to notice your lips being restored within a week, no more than!

Not only does Burt's Bees provide you with a clear lip balm but they also manufacture lip glosses, this way you can achieve a look that goes well with your facial make up and still be gifted with a product that will heal your lips.

If you're looking for a saviour to help you with your 'lip situation' then this is definitely the product for you. Don't let the price tag scare you away, paying the extra couple of dollars compared to rival brands is extremely beneficial!

(Prices may vary)

Around $5.67 CDN at Wal Mart

Oblivion - RPG Video Game

2010-02-09T15:36:00.002-05:00

When I first started taking this blog seriously I wanted to provide a wide range of topics that everyone could enjoy and so I'm going to blog about this amazing video game, Oblivion: The Elder Scrolls IV, developed by Bethesda Softworks, the same company that brought you Fallout 3.

For years I was looking for a free roaming rpg that I could play for hours and hours on end without getting bored. My first rpg that I ever played was Zelda: Ocarina of Time and I wanted something that would hold my interest as well as Zelda did. Thankfully, I found Morrowind and I indulged in it immediately. Unfortunately, compared to Oblivion, fighting in Morrowind was a complete pain in the ass because when you would aim to hit something with your sword, it wouldn't cause any damage points. Another thing that I found to be tedious was the fact that the map was extremely dark and difficult to read so when playing, many users found that they had issues trying to find their way back to a place that they had been before. Though there were negatives to Morrowind, a positive was that when stacking your inventory (ex. armour) in your house, you had a better ability to control where you could put things and it made it far easier to organize things.

Oblivion was a god send to Bethesda, since it was named Game of the Year in 2006 after being released on March 20th of the same year. A ton of hype was created prior to the release of Oblivion and we all know what hype can do to a game...I mean, if a lot of attention is brought to a certain platform for releasing a certain game, it's nearly a flop release 95% of the time. The good thing about the hype surrounding Oblivion was that all of it was completely necessary. The game blew every other free roaming rpg out of the water by far with its realistic graphics, large sized map, smooth and easy controls and a wide variety of side quests to indulge your character and yourself in.

One thing that I personally found faulty in Morrowind was the speech concept. When you start a conversation with someone, you have a selection of phrases to say to them. Every time you say a certain thing, another topic comes back into the box. Normally, that wouldn't seem to be a problem aside from the fact that you originally have around 10 topics to talk about and that amount gets doubled as you go through the list. Another thing that didn't impress me was that when you would select a topic, it wouldn't become ghosted which means that you could potentially go through the list twice before you realized that you had done so. In Oblivion, Bethesda fixed that by only giving you a selective amount of things to ask the person that you're conversing with and after you selected a certain subject, it would disappear from your list of suggested topics.

The graphics in this game are completely outstanding, you can distinguish every single facial feature from a skewed eyebrow to a wrinkle under a characters eye. The landscape was well done as well, the grass would move according to the wind and it looked extremely realistic. Now imagine placing this baby in on your 1080p flat screen LCD and getting lost in the scenery. When creating your character they give you a lot of options as well ranging from skin tone to the height/width of your cheekbones which was quite fascinating. Though many people don't enjoy this aspect of video games, I like to take my time when it comes to rpg's rather than just plugging in and playing asap.

The map itself seems very large at first, and yes, it is. But it's not as if you'll be going through hours and hours of examining forests and mountains without any sort of reward. As you make your way through the outskirts of the cities, you discover caves and towers, both of which usually include hefty rewards inside of chests and it also provides you with an easy way of levelling up due to the fact that you need to battle the various monsters within.

If you're the type of person who just wants to jump from city to city and ignore the side quests then good luck with this game. Every side quest that you are granted with either has its benefits or its downsides and you will need those benefits as you make your way through the game. Though I'm sure that there is a way for you to complete the game without having to involve yourself in the side quests, you may find that it would be increasingly difficult.

There is only one thing that I didn't enjoy about Oblivion and it was that if my other family members hadn't played it before I did, I would have been left in the dark without an owner's guide. There are several armour pieces that are hidden throughout the lands that I wouldn't have had any idea about if my Grandmother or my Grandfather hadn't enlightened me on that particular subject. Aside from that, everything else is absolutely flawless.

I myself haven't bought the expansion pack (The Shivering Isles) but I've heard nothing but good things about it, including that the extra quests are worthwhile and extremely interesting.

Oblivion is available on the PC/XBOX 360/PS3 so don't worry all of you game gurus, it's available on every platform.

Pricing - EB Games

XBOX 360 (Used): $14.99

XBOX 360 (Game of the Year Edition) (Used): $24.99

PS3 (Game of the Year Edition) (New//Backordered): $29.99

PC (Game of the Year Edition) (New//Backordered): $19.99

Valentine's Day/Disaster Proof Ideas

2010-02-05T14:07:00.012-05:00

In the spirit of St. Valentine's Day, Bret (an avid blog writer) and I decided to compile a list of ideas that you can take and use to your advantage to make your lover the happiest person on the face of the planet. I myself have googled many ideas for Valentine's Day to please my other half but the one thing was that I never received a guys opinion on it. With that being said, I have given Bret's list (what to do for your lady) a once over and I approve every single feature on it and vice versa. So don't worry, ladies and gents, you've already gotten the female & male seal of approval on the following lists! After years of experience, here are our top 10 picks for both guys and girls in the order from most extravagant to most common!

What you can do for your lovely lady:

10. Decorate your house/home/apt. with candles, and cook dinner yourself, entice her with a little candle light.

9. Say your going to see a movie, then surprise her with something she enjoys more.

8. Show up at her house early in the morning, so you can spend all day with her.

7. Do everything that she would normally do around the house, or choirs/errands she needs to be ran.

6. Send her 6 roses, then when you come over show up with the remaining 6.

5. Give her an extended massage that could lead into other options.

4. Participate in activities she likes, that you aren't so interested in.

3. Make her a creative gift that means something, rather than just something expensive.

2. If you are proposing, do a scavenger hunt not hinting anything at all, and then pop the question on the last clue she finds.

1. Write her a letter expressing all your feelings about her, with a box of chocolates and roses.

P.S - If you have a lot of money buy her diamonds!

When I first read that list of things to do for your lady, I had a gigantic smile plastered on my face throughout the entire thing. The thought of a man going out of his way to do any of the above made my heart speed up. We personally have a friend named Nathan who decided to reenact number 3 for his girlfriend's birthday and it was a hit!

What you can do for your marvellous man:

10. Nothing.
(The majority of my male friends confessed that they would rather not have their girlfriend do anything for them on Valentine's Day. I suppose that's a hint that they would rather have something planned for you!)

9. Take him out to a sports event and then when you get home, give him a little TLC.

8. Go out for a long drive, if the roads are safe enough to do so.
(Men love to drive so give him the opportunity to enact in something he loves with the person he loves. Take out a map of the city and close your eyes while pointing to a spot, that will be your final destination. Take the longest way possible to get there and just enjoy each other's company. Be sure to have a lot of road trip cd's made with both his and your favourite music. Maybe stop at a little run down burger shack for lunch.)

7. Rent/buy him something new and unique.
(If your man is into photography, rent him the new Canon or Nikon DSLR and insist that he is to take pictures of you. If he's more into cars, rent him a car that he wouldn't otherwise be able to afford, for the day. Go out on walks or just simply drive around town, no one aside from you two will know that it's rented ;).)

6. Romantic shower and a traditional dinner.
(When you're both getting ready to go out, mix it up a little bit and get into the shower with him. Turn the lights off, turn the heat of the water up a little bit and spend several minutes exploring each others bodies. The sensuality that'll arise from that situation will be too much to bear so don't blame us if you end up in bed and miss your reservations!)

5. Play video games with him.
(Yes, it is that simple. Many guys would rather play video games and watch their girlfriends 'rage' every time they die rather than go out and spend a ton of money on an expensive dinner. Regardless of how bad you are at video games, give him a little slack, he does cater to your every need.)

4. Wake him up in the morning with his favourite breakfast in bed and then rent as many of his favourite movies as possible and spend the day watching them.
(This method works for both you and him if you're the kind of person that wants to spend the day in bed with the person you love the most)

3. Cook him dinner.
(Instead of spending a ridiculous amount of money and time trying to find the perfect restaurant, get your guy to come over and feed him the most delectable food that he could ever ask for. Pull out a cooking book and make things a little different, surprise him with your skills and not to mention he'll also appreciate the fact that you're not weighing his wallet down.)

2. Bake him treats.
(The one thing I always learned was that one of the ways to a guys heart is through his stomach. Bake him a couple of tasty treats for your special day together. I mean, if he's willing to take you out for dinner, have dessert prepared.)

1. A striptease followed by passionate sex.
(Yes, sex, the thing that you probably do on a regular basis. Maybe it's just the fact that you're giving it to him on a particular holiday that makes it more exciting!)

Take these lists to heart, they can help you out more than you know!

Skin Care Army

2010-02-04T20:22:00.004-05:00

An ongoing issue with myself and many teens in the world is the troublesome of reoccurring acne. I myself don't necessarily have skin that needs to be treated by a dermatologist on a regular basis, but I do happen to have a few areas that need to be worked on. I have gone through so many facial cleansers/toners/masks/spot treatments that would make your jaw drop.

Every time that I tried a product and I loved it, it would be discontinued and I would be forced to try to find it online without any luck, of course. I'm going to go through my entire 'anti pimple kit' and name off everything that I love having to use and then I'll write reviews about all of the products.

For Christmas my mother has a tendency to throw in a lot of stocking stuffers and this was one of them, Shea Butter by Spa Cosmetics. At first I started using it on my face in an attempt to moisturize it and to keep it healthy. Unfortunately, with my skin, it made it super oily and that proved to be extremely tedious because in return, it would make my make up start to get really cakey and gross. After I had given up on using this product on my face, I began to use it to moisturize the key parts of my body, my elbows, knees, hands, and feet (those are the places that get the driest). I am pleased to say that Spa Cosmetics' Shea Butter is absolutely wonderful as a body lotion. It's made with dead sea minerals which made it even more enriching and it also smells fairly decent which is an even larger plus! I definitely recommend it for anyone who has extremely dry skin and is looking for a little relief in the harsh winter weather.

Out of 5 stars, I'm giving Spa Cosmetics' Shea Butter 5.

*****

$10.oo-15.00 CDN at any Winners location

O2H seems to be an underground company since I cannot seem to find their website anywhere on the internet. This is their face purifier (gel cleanser) which seems to be working fairly well for me. The one thing that really caught my eye about this cleanser was that it was made with organic materials, vitamins, and it has a paraben-free formula. This is perfect for anyone who's tired of putting all of these harsh alcohol based cleansers all over their face. The cleanser also contains dead sea elements much like the previously mentioned shea butter. According to the bottle it increases cell regeneneration and keeps your skin firm, though I don't think that's something that I'm necessarily worried about at the age of 18. At first O2H's formula dried my skin out a lot, and I mean a lot but as I continued to use it on a regular basis, it proved to be one of my best friends. It now cleans without wiping out all of the natural oils that I need in order to keep my skin healthy. Another thing that I really enjoyed was that it took all of my make up off in one cleansing. I tend to be really lazy when it comes to removing all of the make up from my face but luckily all I had to do was run this gel cleanser over my skin once and every bit of my make up was removed!

Out of 5 stars, I'm giving O2H's Face Purifier 4 solely because the product is amazing but it doesn't have an invigorating scent like Clean and Clear or many other facial cleansers.

*****

$15.00 CDN at any Winners location

Neutrogena's Alcohol-Free Toner proved to be somewhat of a godsend. I'm constantly reminded of the fact that I need to tone after I cleanse, just to seal my pores so no more dirt can get into them. Alcohol tends to make my face break out even more so finding this product a couple of years ago was absolutely amazing to me. It gives you that refreshing tingly sensation with a delightful scent after your use but at the same time it calms your nerves, assuring you that it is alcohol free and that feeling isn't your skin being dried out. Another thing that I adore about this product is that it is extremely affordable, far more affordable than many other toners that I've purchased.

Out of 5 stars, I'll give Neutrogena's Alcohol-Free Toner 5.

*****

$8.00 CDN at any Wal Mart

Okay so if you're reading this, you obviously have issues with those pesky little zits that happen to pop up at the most inconveniencing times. Clean & Clear's Persa-Gel 5 helps with those little monsters extremely quickly and efficiently. Basically what you do is you cleanse your face with your cleanser of choice, dry it off, and then put a dab of this product on top of a papule that you wish to turn into a whitehead or a preexisting whitehead that you wish to be diminished for good. In a matter of hours, the zit has disappeared and you can go about your business without having to worry about whether someone's staring at the huge bump on your face or not. This product has helped me on many occasions, especially before class presentations. My method of use usually happens the most at night, before bed. The only issue is that you have to make sure that it dries before you put your head down on the pillow or else you risk bleaching the fabric of your pj's and/or whatever you're lying down on. Overall, it's amazing and you just have to try it out for yourself!

5 out of 5 stars without a doubt.

*****

$11.00 CDN at any Wal Mart location

The final product that I'm going to review is this absolutely astounding tea tree oil that's brought to you by Holista. Holista also specialize in daily vitamins/dietary vitamins that I also find to work quite well. When I was younger, I had a friend that constantly used tea tree oil to tame her acne and it seemed to work quite well so I also decided to try it out for myself. I cannot express this enough: THIS PRODUCT WILL SAVE YOUR SKIN. Tea tree oil is usually used to fix skin problems other than acne but it works so well. The only thing that I advise is that you plug your nose while you dab this on your skin because the stench is overwhelming, it's not something that you'd want to put on before you got in bed with your significant other, trust me. As for application, all you have to do is put a couple of drops onto a cotton ball or cosmetic pad and then gently (in a circular motion preferably) cover your problem areas and you will immediately feel it working. I'm a big organic skin care fan so finding out that this tea tree oil was 100% pure made me buy it immediately. The only problem that you may find is that it makes your skin extraordinarily greasy after you apply it and so I want to ensure you that your skin being oily is absolutely expected, considering that you are applying tea tree oil to your skin. It works wonders.

Absolutely a 5 out of 5.

*****

Around $10.00 CDN, it depends on the potency and the size of the bottle. At any Wal Mart/drugstore.

I certainly hope that this post will assist all of you with issues relating to your skin, I know that they worked wonders for me. I also want to reiterate that I am in no way a dermatologist and that these products worked specifically for my skin (which has a tendency to be either extremely oily or extremely dry), it doesn't mean that they will work 100% on yours considering that everyone has different skin types.

Virgin Mobile/LG Rumor 2

2010-02-03T17:39:00.007-05:00

I was looking for a reasonably priced phone with a sleek look and many features that I could use on a regular basis. In the past year I've gone through so many cell phones considering that my taste in technology changes more than the weather. Prior to the LG Rumor 2, I had the Motorola Renew which worked well for me, aside from a few minor details including the back battery case not closing.

The LG Rumor was a phone that I had my eye on ever since I found out about T-Mobile's Sidekick. Unfortunately, here in Canada we don't have T-Mobile and therefore the LG Rumor was the closest option. It's starting price was at $111.00 and I definitely didn't have the money for that at the particular time. Time and patience was all I needed.

Best Buy placed the LG Rumor 2 on sale for around $90 a couple of months ago and so I immediately picked it up using a prepaid plan rather than a monthly plan.

Now for the product review.

Signing the phone up was fairly simple, considering that all I had to do was log into the Virgin Mobile database online and type in the IMEI code, the phone itself comes with a sim card installed internally. As I explored the phone some more I realized that there was a lot more to it than I had originally thought. Unfortunately, the way that they have everything organized makes it quite a hassle. Every menu option has at least 9 separate sub menus to go through. This is why you somewhat need to memorize where everything is which I found to be extremely tedious.

The phone does have a QWERTY keyboard which makes it extremely easy to text with and to coincide with that, the phone is also enabled with MSN Messenger, though you need to have a monthly plan to activate it.

One feat in particular that I was extremely astounded with was the battery life. I could leave the phone off of the charger for nearly 4 days straight which is quite an improvement compared to the other phones that I've had in the past. Though keeping in mind, I wouldn't be able to use the phone and have it last for 4 days. With constant texting, the LG Rumor 2 would last about 2 days, which I find to be extremely useful.

Changing the volume of the ringer is also simple which I know all of the high school students in the world will appreciate. If you're in class, all you have to do is press a button a couple of times on the side of the phone and it changes the phone's volume from loud to vibrate, simple and quick. Another thing that I noticed is that with most phones that I've had, for some reason they make a beeping sound to give you a preview of how loud your phone is. The LG Rumor 2 doesn't, also extremely useful.

Storing contacts is fairly simple and the way that they're stored is extremely unique. Alongside the number and the contact name it also tells you what province/state/country the contact's number is from.

I'm sure that there's a feature for this somewhere in the phone that I haven't figured out but if you were to leave your phone idle for a few moments, it automatically locks itself. If you want it unlocked, you have to press two keys OR you can slide open the keyboard and press the 'back' button a couple of times to get to the main menu. Pain in the.....well, you get the idea.

Another issue that I have is the lack of colour selection that LG offers with this model of the phone. As far as I know there's only a black model and a light blue model that's available in some countries, though at the time of my purchase it was unavailable.

Overall, the phone is useful for right now but I have a feeling that it's time to move on from the QWERTY keyboard heaven to a touch screen phone asap.

Without a contract this phone with run for $109.99 (on sale) at Best Buy and per usual with most phones, alongside a 2 year contract with Virgin Mobile the phone is $0.00.

Out of 5 stars, I'll give the LG Rumor 2, 4 stars.

*****

ApHogee Keratin Hair Treatment

2010-02-02T18:41:00.002-05:00

I have been waiting for months to try and find a subsitute for hot oil treatments and so I dropped by Sally's which is this beauty supply shop that I have down the street from my house. When I was younger, I used to use the hot oil treatments and they were the best things that had ever happened to my hair.

I picked up this ApHogee keratin hair treatment because the lady told me that it would be the best thing for my hair, since it is d-e-a-d. I'd like to thank my constant use of my hair straightener and my continuous dye jobs for that one. The first night I used it, it was absolutely horrendous and did nothing for my hair at all. So I waited a week to test it out again to see if it'd make any difference. Unfortunately, the product just didn't go so well with my hair. It actually made it drier, if that's even possible.

Needless to say, I'm really disappointed in this product because I was so excited to have finally found something that could have fixed my nearly irreparable hair. The only thing that I found to be slightly enticing was the smell of the cream. It reminded me of a hair salon, which I adore the smell of.

Out of 5 stars, I'm going to have to give this product 1.

*****

2009-11-06T22:06:00.002-05:00

The shampoo/conditioner duo works like a CHARM. It completely defined my curls and tamed the frizziness down a ton so I can honestly say that I'm extremely happy with the outcome!

So lately I haven't really been around which in turn means that I haven't really had the time to blog about anything that's been going on in my life recently. I've been making a lot of trips to Kitchener to see my once boyfriend, Dayne, speaking of which he still has my Canon. I have to remember to go down next weekend to retrieve it, if I even have the time!

I'm 18 in 10 days, how exciting! Not really though, 18 is such a boring age. I mean, I can get married, join the army, and buy lottery tickets...but I can't legally drink, buy smokes, or gamble in casinos. Kind of a downer, having to wait an entire extra year before I can do any of the things that I actually enjoy doing. Oh well. These next 2 weekends are going to be Hell though. I have to fit in 2 separate family dinners, getting to Kitchener to get my stuff back, New Moon, bingo, getting my hair done and getting my acrylics finally put on. Grr. So much to do, so little time.

I haven't really been designing lately, sadly. All of my efforts have been focused on late nights on the phone and music, lots and lots of music. Thanks to a friend of mine, I've been downloading all of the old songs that I used to listen to from bands like Sum 41 and Tenacious D. It's all really good music, I don't know why I even stopped listening to it.

Unfortunately, I have an extremely early morning tomorrow. I have a meeting with some bank person to go over mortgage payments or something along those lines,
so goodnight my loves!

xoxo.

2009-10-03T23:49:00.004-04:00

I knowww that I haven't been blogging, it's just that between school and a lot of personal issues, I haven't really had the time to.

But I do have a product test blog to produce :D

I've been hearing a lot about Herbal Essences Tousle Me Softly shampoo but I haven't really read any reviews on it. Since I am well known to have wildly curly hair I was wondering if this shampoo/conditioner combo would somehow relax the curls a little to provide me with a small amount of relief just before the winter months. Only because all of us curly haired ladies know that winter is the easiest season to straighten our hair without having to worry about the dreaded humidity!

I bought the product today so I haven't had the chance to use the product yet but I intend on doing so tonight. I'm thinking of updating you guys as I go through the usage of the shampoo/conditioner and give you either a positive or negative review on it, hopefully it's positive ;]

xoxo.

2009-08-29T05:01:00.002-04:00

I think that I really need to work on going to bed a lot earlier because things are going to become increasingly trying when I start work in a couple of weeks. I'm so used to late nights so getting my sleeping pattern back on track is going to be really really hard.

Things have been pretty good as of late between Dayne, Armand, Chris G, and Chris M. Especially Armand, ahaha oh late nights how you plague me.

Last night Chris G and I went out for a walk down to this pond thing that I used to go to all of the time last year. We explored all over the place it was really nice. Theennn we got extremely bored and decided to go out driving. We went to see my ex, Chris and we smoked for a bit while trying to decide what to do. I had this brilliant idea to go to this park but apparently it wasn't as brilliant as I had thought because it's a hot spot for stabbings, ha! So Chris M thought that it would be a good idea to go for a walk, and off we went. We walked for nearly 2 hours and between the two boys I can honestly say that college parties will not be an issue. Tonight I'm apparently being dragged to a party in Richmond Hill and if you're from around here, you know what that means. I don't really want to go though because I'm not exactly the best person when it comes to meeting new people. But we'll see, Chris said that he was just going to show up so I'm debating on whether to actually get ready for it or not.
Grr.

I'm still working on t-shirt designs for my line, they're going to be pretty amazing, not gonna lie.

But aside from that, I've been working on my photography, trying to figure out what to major in when I go to college and trying to sort out my ridiculous relationship situations. Yes, situations, as in plural.

I get to go to Ikea today though so I'm pretty sure that nothing could be better than that!

xx.

2009-08-16T18:12:00.003-04:00

This past weekend was SOO crazy! I had some friends over and I basically spent Friday Night - Sunday afternoon surrounded by them. It was full of movies, makeshift meals, money spending, driving, and spontaneous walks. It was definitely needed.

I'm also extremely happy that it happened because it helped me see the light regarding a few things, including ex boyfriends. I was really confused for a while after I had met Scott and after a few other people had come back into my life. But after certain events happened, it definitely cleared the air and 'showed me the light'.

I didn't sleep from Friday morning - Sunday morning and I was dead tired today so I put in Silent Hill and dozed off for a couple of hours. The weird thing is that every time I woke up, I would get a text like 5 seconds after. I swear, my friends have esp. Anyways, after attempting to watch the entire movie 3 times I finally gave up and waited for my parents to come home.

Now I'm just relaxing in my bed and watching Signs.
Which if you know me, is a terrible idea.

I really need to go on an American Apparel binge at some point this weekend. There were a lot of discussions about it this weekend and it definitely made me want to go. Plus, I need to pick up a dress from a girlfriend of mine!

So I have a feeling that to go along with this busy weekend, all of next week is going to be insane as well!

Why is everyone in the hospital recently?

xx.

2009-08-07T02:10:00.004-04:00

I'm currently watching Under the Tuscan Sun because it's one of those movies that you must watch if you're needing a little dose of hope. Diane Lane gives an exceptional performance as an American writer who is invited to go to Tuscany on her two lesbian friends' behalf. The rest of the story is simply, life. A glorious and profound life full of love, laughter, and tears. It's really a beautiful movie, you should all watch it at some point.

Recently I've been on this happiness kick, I've been doing/finding anything and everything that I can that will ensure my happiness. Seriously, I've never been on such a high in my entire life. Sure, I've lost a couple of friends along the way but someone very close to me just told me to move on and get over the people who are just out there to bring you down.

So I am, I have, I'm happier than I have ever been in my entire life. This is a good thing, nearly 18 and already satisfied with what I'm doing and where I'm going!

I temporarily lost my train of thought for a moment there.

I've been pushing forward with my designs which you can obviously see if you navigate to the other blog that I hold under this account. I'm also selling a bunch of the clothes that I would never wear in a hundred years. But they are cute, just not my style in the least.

Oh! I ordered a nevershoutnever! bracelet via his merch page and it actually came! After several debates with my bank, I was finally capable of getting the payment out.

I also ordered a beanie from Hong Kong which was probably the most sketchy buy that I've ever made, but if it actually comes, the 11 dollars was definitely worth it, without debate.

So much has been happening and I'm way too exhausted to unfold all of the events of the past month, craziness!

Let me leave you with a little video, yeah?

xx.

2009-07-25T13:09:00.002-04:00

Hey guys! I haven't been able to update all week because I was out of wi fi range for way too long. I feel like i've missed out on SO much!

It seriously feels so good to have a straightener touch my hair, seriously. I have never been so deprived of beauty utensils in so long.

Anyways, I'm really really excited about the new Alice in Wonderland movie that's coming out in 2010. The costumes are sooo outrageous and I love the macabre feel that they have.

http://www.imdb.com/title/tt1014759/mediaindex

Check them all out at that link, for sure.

xoxo.

2009-07-18T22:36:00.003-04:00

I'm about to go out driving for the second night in a row with Chris G.
I think we're just going to moss around the city/go to Caledon and maybe hang out with my baby girl, Dahlia, or my boys.
Hopefully <3

Anyways, I wanted to update you on some really good songs that I've been feeling lately.

1. Shooting Star Party Rock Remix - Young Boss ft. LMFAO, Pitbull & Kevin Rudolf
2. Carrera - Karl Wolf
3. They Don't Really Care About Us - Michael Jackson
4. Saint Veronika - Billy Talent (their new CD isn't as amazing as the hype makes it out to be)
5. Body Control - Leighton Meester
6. Camilla - Basshunter
7. Cross Out the Eyes - Thursday (pretty old but I was reminded about it today, still amazing)
8. Kiss Kiss - DJ Cammy
9. www.nevergetoveryou - Prozzak (official song of my Stickam room)
10. Candyman - Aqua (mmm 90's)

that's all for now!

xoxo.

2009-07-16T17:58:00.003-04:00

I just dropped by Keely's blog and it really made me want to update everyone on my life, seriously. You should read her stuff, it's full of fashion/cosmetic advice and so much more!
Click the hyperlinks to help her out too :p

Okay so I went through this huge 'meeting new people' frenzy and made a ton of friends!
Actually, I made like one really good friend but the other people are still pretty cool. I mean, it's summer and we're supposed to be living it up so I'm not letting anything keep me back anymore!

I was in my basement studio last night and I realized that I haven't really designed anything in a really long time so I think that I'm going to spend a decent few hours working on my new hair bow line. They're going to be really unique and out there. I also need to start picking complimentary colours for blondes and red heads because I've really only been designing for brunettes. Bad Tiara.

I finally opened a PayPal account and my first purchase was a bracelet from NSN!
I wanted to get the green one because navy just seemed so cliche.

I'm in loveee with those bracelets. I really wanted to get one from babycakes clothing but they don't accept paypal payments without a credit card! It was quite depressing.

I need to go out and take more photos because I recently formatted my memory card and all of my preexisting stuff was deleted!

xoxo!

2009-07-08T00:32:00.002-04:00

I am so glad that everything has been sorted.

You really cannot take me into Wal Mart without me leaving with either a) a lot of stuff or b) too little stuff for the amount that I pay. I went today and bought three Rimmel nail polishes (pics uploaded later), some Maybelline Colossal mascara, a lime green/brown eyeshadow duo, and some Burt's Bees face stuff. Total cost; 46 bucks.

Pretty decent but I could have bought a ton of clothes from VV's for that amount of money.

Anyways, I have to go pick up my movie's <33
xx.

2009-07-05T16:52:00.004-04:00

Okay so the past couple of days have been a blur.
Let's see if I can sum up my uneventful weekend.

Friday, I came down to Mississauga and I hung out with a friend of mine.

Saturday I cleaned the entire downstairs of my grandparents house (which took ALL day) and then my Grandfather took me to see Transformers 2 at around 8 PM. We went to Demetre's beforehand to get some dessert and I got this strawberry cheesecake thing with an iced cappuccino. I definitely like the iced caps from Tim's better but this cheesecake, O M G. It was huge and the strawberries were actually really really fresh and it was glazed in this strawberry sauce. So so so good. To top it all off, the movie was absolutely astounding. I left the theater completely awestruck. It was awesome and epic!

As for today, I've been cleaning. I went to the doctor's aaandd now I really want to get acrylics onnn but it's 4:54 and the malls close in like 6 minutes so I think that this may have to happen tomorrow. Now all I have to do is find someone to go with!

I'm working on some new projects for TAD. I'm thinking of doing a hairbow collection and possibly waist belts...I'm also working on a feature piece that I'm hoping will turn out amazingly. I'm doing the entire thing from scratch, basically so let's hope that it turns out!

I found this really adorable book that my Grandmother got in the 80's and it's called 'Mother tried to tell me...and I just wouldn't listen.' It's basically this little booklet with things that a mother has said to her daughter and really, they're all true. So I figure since it touched me when I read it, I'll write one of the quotes at the end of each blog from now on!

Oh & I'm really vibing this song, weird I know.

xoxo.

'The secret of happy living is not to do what you like, but to like what you do.'

Excuse me while I routinely throw up all over the internet.

2009-07-02T22:27:00.004-04:00

I had made a promise to myself when I was six or seven years old. I told myself that I was going to succeed and overcome any obstacle that life would throw at me. I promised myself that I would take hit after hit if it meant that I was capable of becoming a better person. I promised myself that I would be the complete opposite of who I am today.

I started out ambitious, curious, and with a keen thirst for a taste of reality. I wanted to be released from the grip of standards and expectations, I wanted to handle the world on my own terms. So many hopes and thoughts yet all of them failed. There is no choice but to be put under the spell of standards and expectations because they surround us, engulf us, take control of our 'souls' and whip us around until we see no point to doing things our own way.

This isn't only about how I've failed myself in becoming who I had always anticipated to be within the aspect of intelligence.

There are so many things in my life that I wish I could take back. And yes, I do realize that many other people have that same idea as well. The difference between them and I is that I dwell on it day after day and it literally makes me cringe. Every time that I visualize the things that I have done and the terrible things that I have accomplished, I temporarily cease to breathe and it gives me a gigantic pit in my stomach. To everyone that I have hurt, I am sorry.

I also think about whether I will find you. You being the person who will never leave my side, love me unconditionally, hate my perfections and love my flaws. I want you to complete me, I want you to make me understand that I am worth fighting for. I have been through many people before and I throw them away aimlessly for they mean nothing more than a quick fuck. I'm waiting for the real deal or at least a significant piece of that. I need to be appreciated for more than what I have been endowed with, for more than I am physically. I will forever wait for those words, 'You are my life now.'

So many things have been occurring recently and it has really made me second guess where I'm going in life and who I'm taking with me on this glorious excursion that I am about to embark on. I am reinventing myself in more ways that I could have ever imagined possible. I am going to be a brand new person, far different than what I've become to this day.

Sometimes I wonder about whether I will put myself to bed and never wake up again.

-------------

I thought that writing things down was a method to feeling less weighted?
That method doesn't seem to help whatsoever, I still feel as heavy as I did before maybe it's because I am full of so much emotional turmoil that I am incapable of healing myself.

There comes a time in everyone's life where they just need to let things go. I can't. I can't say the things that I think because I know that they will sound crazy, that people will call me obsessive and psychotic because yes, it has happened before. I have been mentally tortured and forced to believe that everything about me is a concoction of insane tendencies. What am I supposed to do now? I can't write them down because I will lose my friends, I can't talk to any professionals about this because I'll be sent away to a psychiatric ward, and I most certainly do not have anyone trustworthy enough in my life to be able to handle what I need to put on their shoulders. I think about this daily, every single fucking day and it makes me begin to speak out loud and then I begin to blame it on the drugs that I used to involve myself with. Could it be the acid talking? Or is it all pent up frustration and fear and anger?

Would someone please fucking explain to me what is happening.

How is it that two insignificant people can turn your entire world around and make you see the worst in yourself rather than the best?
And how the fuck is it that I constantly go back to the one person who started it all?

God fucking damn you.
I wish that you had never been born.

2009-07-02T03:03:00.001-04:00

i'm going to upload the pictures from last night/the accessories that i made with my hello kitty kit later.

but as for now, i just wanted to say that i am so lucky to have the friends that i do.
i was having problems processing things earlier today
but after a like 2 hour conversation with mike
definitely
feeling
a
lot
better,

xoxo.

2009-06-30T21:22:00.005-04:00

OKAY SO.
I officially love Value Village.

Swati and I went thrifting today and I picked up some pretty amazing stuff & then I came across this;

At first I was like 'HELLO KITTY, I'M BUYING IT!' Not really caring about what was inside of it.
Then I shook it and it sounded like there were some mysterious objects inside.
IT TURNED OUT TO BE AMAZING.

BEADSGALORE!
Now I can make my own necklaces out of Hello Kitty things.

xoxo.

2009-06-25T19:46:00.002-04:00

Okay so I'm sitting on my floor drinking a coffee and listening to CNN report the same thing over and over about Michael Jackson's death.

This is how I look at it,
another human being died, a legend in music, yes, but just another human being. This isn't me being insensitive this is me being realistic. He was a brilliant musician who made statements with his lyrics. There is absolutely NO reason as to why I should have to sit here and listen to certain people bitch me out because they're treating it as if he was their boyfriend of 20 years.

When Heath Ledger died, I'll admit, I was shaken and I did cry a few tears but I most definitely moved on with my life and his legacy will forever be relived through the art that he made, movies.

The same goes for Michael Jackson.

So with that being said,
he's not your father, your brother, your uncle, or your son.
He is just another human being, move on with your life and listen to Thriller once in a while.

P.s. Today would have been my father's birthday.
Now that is something to be legitimately upset about.

xoxo.

2009-06-22T21:29:00.001-04:00

Guys, I have a confession to make.

I went to go shopping tonight and I caved.
I bought rompers.
Not one, but TWO.
Even though I said I wouldn't.
But they are SO cute, like, you wouldn't believe.

So stoked to wear them out.

xoxo.

2009-06-21T13:45:00.005-04:00

'We all knew this was going to happen' aaaaand yes, it did. I got my own prom, aha. Dylan pretty much set the whole thing up. It was so lame.

I think that I'm going to be spending my Sunday watching Sex and the City & getting a mani/pedi.

I'm so tireeedd of the same Sundays.

GIVEMEDIFFERENCE.

This makes me want to go out.

2009-06-18T11:58:00.001-04:00

2009-06-17T23:40:00.002-04:00

'Good morning, beautiful.'

All night,
v i d e o g a m e s.

LOVE.

2009-06-17T12:27:00.000-04:00

2009-06-14T14:59:00.002-04:00

I'm so uninspired and I wish that I could figure out what it is that is making me so blocked. I wish that I could stay awake for four days and just keep working and working and working. Where are you, my muse? I will find you, I promise you that.

I found you.

2009-06-13T10:23:00.003-04:00

View blog,
view blog,
view blank.

I don't know what to say anymore because it all seems like it's been said before.

Dakota called again at 2 AM last night,
I'm still not graduating this year,
co-op's finished,
I registered for my passport today,
I need a new cell phone,
I need a job,
I got a call for one,
don't want it. denied it,
my hair's a mess,
I need thrifting,
my dead father's brother added me to facebook yesterday.

Yeah.
Awesome.

2009-05-24T13:10:00.001-04:00

NEW LINK FOR MY HEADBANDS;
http://tiaraashleighdesigns.blogspot.com/

I recently added five more, go check it out.

TWO MUCHO IMPORTANTE POSTS.

2009-05-18T12:18:00.001-04:00

1. I launched a partial part of my line, TAD.
www.atadbitcute.blogspot.com

2.
The Chain Gang of 1974 - We At The Disco

2009-05-11T00:55:00.002-04:00

Can someone please explain to me WHY IN THE NAME OF GOD ARE THEY MAKING BAGGY SKINNY LEG JEANS?! I got this photo from Jezebel's website and holy jesus, what is this world coming to? I mean, I understand parachute pants, all for the MC Hammer 90's look...
but not with denim, that's just cruel and unnecessary.

It looks okay when guys take skinny jeans and pull them around their asses, more than fine, but when it comes to actually tailoring denim to LOOK LIKE THAT oh lord.

Makes you wonder, what's next, doesn't it?

xx

2009-05-07T22:31:00.004-04:00

This probably isn't going to make any sense in the least but I have to get it all out,
so bear with me.

It's not my fault that I have a fast paced personality, I don't wait for things to be perfect, I don't wait for the right time.
I know what I want and I go for it, immediately.
This is why I can't handle when I tell someone that I want to be with them after 4 days of talking to them.
That's who I am, and that's how I know.
People find that hard to believe, they call it lust or premature attraction.
I've been with myself for seventeen years and yeah, I sure as Hell haven't figured out who the fuck I am entirely, but I do have enough knowledge to understand when I want to be in a relationship with someone.
This isn't rebound action, this isn't a booty call, this is me actually putting myself out there for someone to sweep me off of my feet.
And God fucking damn it, would someone please just sweep me off of my fucking feet?

I thought it was with Chris, but no, he used me for sex and it took me a few weeks to realize that.
Too bad he only lasted thirty seconds the first time we had sex.
Fucking imbecile.

I thought it was with Dakota,
no, I was apparently the only one who fell in love during that relationship.
And to Hell with him.

Thought it was with Jacob but it wasn't,
his homework was far more superior than his fucking girlfriend.

And now you,
oh you,
this is what I do so I don't have to say this to you.
I WANT you to sweep me off of my feet,
you are so undeniably perfect, not perfect,
wait
no definitely not perfect,
that's creepy.
BUT you are JUST like me.
From music to somewhat fashion,
to the way you think,
to the way you handle people.
If I had it my way, I'd have every single one of my movie moments with you.

And yeah, that's crazy for me to say,
but I have liked you for quite a while, well, your face, since that's all I knew.
Since first semester,
and I never told you.
So this is me telling you,
this is my way of letting it out.

And yeah, it may not be good enough but I'm here,
not for always,
but maybe for a while.

WHYYYYCAN'T YOUSEE THIS?!

I am so fucked up, lmao.

For once in my life I just want someone to tell me how they feel first so then that way, I don't come off as the needy one. I want to be wanted in a way that is far more important than friendship, I'm ready for one. I have been through so much (relationship related) and I feel like I deserve to be treated as a human being, I deserve to be liked and potentially loved for more than a week.
Everyone around me has this amazing thing with someone else and I'm so afraid that I'm never going to be able to have that. I've spent years working on myself so that I can be a good part of a relationship, and now that I've reached the point where I can live with myself, I think I deserve this one little thing.
This is so embarrassing.

2009-04-28T22:28:00.004-04:00

I am an official owner of a record player.

How exciting.

Now I actually need to find ridiculously decent vinyl's to play.

Like,
ridiculously
amazingly
decent.

Tonight was California Roll night at TSA (the studio apartment, obviously) and sooo me and my boys made our fishless sushi.
Made me pretty ill afterwards, not gonna lie.
I mean, my stomach feels like it's about to explode.

I wonder what that would actually feel like.

Ugh, I have work tomorrow 7:30 - 3:30 again.
Maybe, if I'm lucky I'll throw up an organ or two.

I think that I'm going to watch Sid and Nancy before bed,
I'm not so uninspired anymore,
I should finish my designing.

This song helped me through so much,
and the lyrics didn't even relate to anything I was going through,
it's just that his voice is the most soothing thing to my ears.

kloveyou.
xx.

2009-04-28T19:16:00.002-04:00

I am so unbelievably happy right now.

I went through this phase where I was completely down due to the fact that I figured that I didn't have any friends.

I do, and the great thing is that I'm starting to make more. Ahhh I cannot wait until summer when we can all actually go out and do things that are exciting. The thing that's really going to suck is that while all of YOU go away to college/university, I'm going to be stuck here.

But let's not think about that!

I started working on my American Apparel ISU. Oh yeah, it's a 30 minute oral presentation in front of a class of 30 people who I hate more than anything in the world. What could be worse than that?
Oh, the fact that my line won't be launching until probably mid summer.
OH and the fact that career fair is on Monday and I haven't even started working on my display board yet.

Co-op/designing/being social/night school = major and total failure.

Pity me?

I applied for a job today,
I don't really want to talk about where it is because if I don't get it then it might actually be slightly embarrassing...

I'm really uninspired.

Ahaha I love how my topic changes regularly.

xx.

2009-04-18T20:44:00.001-04:00

how can you go wrong? :D

2009-04-18T17:21:00.001-04:00

This has been bothering me continuously for the past few hours.

I remember when I used to come to Mississauga and everyone would be tripping over themselves to be able to hang out with me.

Then Emily and I fell apart,
you and I fell apart,
everything fell apart and now I don't even know where I stand with Mississauga people.

I must have burned a lot of bridges.
I've called only three people today,
God,
Mississauga used to be my home.

This is so depressing, ahaha.

I'm going to see the boyfriend tonight,
and I need a new best friend.

tata.

2009-04-16T17:47:00.001-04:00

I am nevereverever giving into the trend of rompers.
EVER.

xx,
yours truly.

2009-04-13T15:28:00.002-04:00

PRODUCT TEST BLOG

Product: Smooth Away

Okay so I received this as a gift from my Grandmother a while ago and I was just too busy to try it until about 5 minutes ago, I tested it on my leg. Personally, I have mixed reviews about this product. It's basically a hand/finger held applicator with a flex-crystal hair removal pad attached to it and all you have to do is gently buff the hair affected areas in a circular motion and it apparently removes your hair quickly and painlessly.

It ensures that you will remove hair painlessly, and yes, it does remove hair and it does do it painlessly. The only issue is that, unlike shaving or waxing, it doesn't cut the hair low enough to the point where you can't feel it. Perhaps it's my hair type or the fact that I just used it on recently shaved legs, but if I were to run my hand down my leg I can still feel a little stubble. So tip #1, do not use it before a 'big date' because I don't think that your boyfriend would enjoy feeling your body after you've used this!

Secondly, afterwards it leaves this disgusting smell on your skin, it smells like something made in an industrial factory. It's a chemical smell and it has just given me a headache, but that's because I have a really sensitive nose.

Overall, it's not what I had hoped it was going to be.

2009-04-12T21:24:00.002-04:00

Let me begin this post with saying Happy Easter to everyone who celebrates Easter...and I hope that you all obtained a ton of chocolate because I didn't :D
As most of you know, I am indeed lactose intolerant, so instead my parents bought me the 2 disc special edition DVD thing of Twilight. Oh how exciting -.-
I wanted a Gameboy Colour and Pokemon Yellow/Red/Blue, thanks. :] But that's just me being spoiled.

Last night I stayed up until around 5 in the morning talking with Jacob about the most ridiculous and random things...not to mention the touchy argument that we got into over the American troops in the war. Very very personal subject, something that no one wants to debate with me over.

I woke up late today and we ended up going to Markham almost immediately for Easter dinner with my step father's family. I absolutely hate seeing that side of the family because all they talk about is how much weight I've lost since they last saw me and then the whole eating disorder lecture gets started. Not really my cup of tea, if you know what I mean. I fell asleep while watching the Masters (golf thing) after Tiger Woods finished his 18th hole, I couldn't be bothered to keep my eyes open anymore.

Eventually we got back to Brampton and my Grandfather called, this Grandfather being Paul and not my Papa Jacques. My Uncle Andrew apparently has a job in this area and he needs a place to stay, so, because my mother obviously cannot say no, he's staying with us for the next week. I don't really mind, considering that I lived with him for almost a month, but come on. He's almost 30 and he's STILL jumping from house to house.

Regardless, I'm not having a good day :[
Not until 12 something, at least.

xoxo,

yours truly.

2009-04-11T21:06:00.002-04:00

So basically I've decided that I'm going to begin a new venture and to prevent my ideas from getting stolen, I'm not really going to discuss what this venture is. All I can say is that a very exclusive group of people are going to be extremely happy and extremely well known over the internet.

Remember Jacob/movie theatre guy? Yeah, definitely my boyfriend as of yesterday and it became so in the most unconventional way...but hasn't it been decided that I'm already unconventional as is? :p He's great though, really smart and he has his head on straight so hopefully he can lead me in the right direction. No pressure though! The only terrible thing is that we barely get to see each other because he works on the weekends and I work during the week, so I'm exhausted after work whereas he's all active after school. This is why I cannot wait until summer so that I can actually spend a significant amount of time with him. And hmpf, he doesn't get off until 11:30 tonight :[

I'm working full time now, as most of you know, and it's really draining my energy. Thankfully I discovered these green tea supplement pills that are keeping my weight under control. Otherwise I think that I'd be blown up to the size of a balloon! It's funny how you can be so nervous to start at a new job and over the weeks, everything comes so much easier. I remember when I first started, I was terrified to answer the phones because I didn't enjoy talking to people in the least...but now, since I've been there since the end of February, I can answer the phone every time it rings. I don't think that I've ever been this proud of myself in forever, actually.

Soooo I was looking for a new TV series to watch since we all know that I love my TV shows. My friend Lana told me about how amazing One Tree Hill was, so I began watching it and let me tell you, it is as amazing as she had described. Think of a lesser fortunate OC, if you will. It's amazing and I'm already on season 5.

Most people feel sorry for Peyton Sawyer but let me tell you, I'm definitely on team Brooke! You'll understand if you start watching it.

I'm officially done my first tube of MAC eyeliner and it wasn't as great as I thought it would be. I mean it gets applied smoothly and it stays put for a significant amount of time...but I've tried Almay eyeliner that does the exact same thing...and let me tell you, if I'm paying $14 compared to $4 for a tube of eyeliner, there better be a dramatic difference. I think that I'm going to take this opportunity to take a shopping spree in Sephora and finally get the Dior foundation that I've been waiting to get FOREVER.

Sosososoooo excited :]

Since tomorrow's Easter my Mom and I had this brilliant idea to decorate eggs like we used to when I was a little girl. Unfortunately when we were running errands earlier today, we couldn't find anything that would colour eggs...so I think that we're going to end up using my nailpolish. How cute, right? Speaking of Mother/Daughter things, I think that my Mom and I had our first Mother/Daughter moment in Brampton earlier this morning. I was freaking out because I had to paint my toenails (only because I really really wanted to wear my flip flops today) and I nearly had a panic attack on the ground. She literally hugged me and painted them for me, I don't think that I've ever felt so close to my Mom before, well, Dakota happened.

Prom, oh Prom. I'm definitely not going to prom for several reasons.
1. I hate dancing
2. I hate everyone that I go to school with
3. It's a waste of money
4. Jacob won't go
So basically on that Friday, I'm having a bunch of my guy friends over and we're enjoying a night of pizza, beer, cigars, and video games. Sounds like a ton of fun, right? So excited!

I must get going now loves, french manicure time!

xoxo,
yours truly.

2009-04-02T22:12:00.001-04:00

ew.

2009-03-31T20:10:00.001-04:00

Yesterday was interesting to say at the least,
I met Jacob for the first time. Actually, I spoke to him for the first time since I had already seen him.

I'm completely miserable, this will have to come later.

2009-03-28T15:07:00.002-04:00

'I'm an addict for dramatics, I confuse the two for love.'
-Liar (It Takes Two), Taking Back Sunday

2009-03-23T15:16:00.002-04:00

I went thrifting with my girls a couple of days ago and this is the outfit that I happened to come up with:

I found the cheetah print slip but originally it was a few inches longer and had this disgusting red lace trim at the bottom, so I definitely got rid of it and took it up a bit.
The top part is a tube top bra that I bought from American Apparel a long time ago and the leggings are from American Apparel as well and they're snake skin. It's nice because if I decide that I don't like the black on top, I can put it around my waist to make a waist belt.
I think it's cute,
what do you guys think?

xx,
yours truly.

2009-03-18T12:23:00.002-04:00

Good morning!
Well, technically it's good afternoon but since I just woke up less than a hour ago, morning seems to suit fine.

Yesterday was so much fun! I came down to Mississauga from Brampton, originally to hang out with my friend Swati. When I got down, my grandmother wasn't home and she was the person that I needed to get money from. Swati and I had plans to meet up with two of her friends to do a photoshoot but that didn't end up happening so she came by and we watched the end of The Unborn and a little bit of One Missed Call. Theeenn my grandmother came home with all of my cousins, I got my money, and off we went to go thrifting at Value Village. I swear, I picked up the most random things and I'll put pictures up later when I'm home. I got a leopard print slip that's going to be turned into a dress, a blue scarf that reminds me SO much of Versace, a black lingere dress thing that is gorgeous, and a fully vintage Kiss shirt that I'm going to turn into a tank dress for the summer time. Ooohh and this really cute sailor's pin, I just HAD to buy it!

Before we went thrifting, we went to Starbucks and we saw Lana there! I haven't seen her in ages and it was really nice to get to catch up. After she got off, she came to Value Village with us and then her brother picked us up and took us back to her house. We all got changed into our clothes and we went out to get some dinner but first we went to Streetsville to look around. There were three guys there and we honked at them and they like, chased us on their bikes until we officially lost them which was slightly depressing because they were all slightly attractive. Needless to say, we went to Extreme Pita/Quiznos (Swati had Quiznos and Lana and I had Extreme Pita)...I got the veggie one and it was delicious, plus it was only 170 calories. I'm definitely loving this whole vegetarian thing that I'm trying out.

Yes, I am attempting vegetarianism once again but this time it's been three whole days without one meat substance, even though I've been around places that have meat for the past three days. Anddd I'm taking my green tea extract pills, drinking loads of green tea, and I intend on making sushi tonight. Or at least I want to make sushi tonight, not quite sure if I can handle it though.

I've been looking for a really good book to read and my grandmother gave me this one called A Tree Grows in Brooklyn by Betty Smith and apparently it's about this young girl who like, matures, in Brooklyn or something and she said that it was really good. So this is going to be quite the adventure, to say at the least.

I was kind of dissappointed last night though because it was St. Patrick's Day and I did want to drink it out this year. Unfortunately, it was too late for me to go back to Brampton via bus, so that eliminated all of my Brampton affiliates and everyone here in Mississauga went to terrible high school parties last night, not my scene at all.

I did nail art again the other day with my friend Julian. My nails are red and I have upside down blue and silver hearts on my left hand and blue and pink hearts on my right hand, I think that they're adorable and I've been getting compliments on them since they've been done. Speaking of which, I'm thinking of putting blue in my hair. The only problem is that if I do blue, my hair has to be jet black and I don't know if I'm really up for dying my hair black again since I hated it so much when I had it done. Rararar I don't know, all I know is that I look like a mess right now.

I have absolutely nooo make up on, snake skin leggings on, a hugee blue hoodie, my hair is in a million barretts and I have hanging earrings that are almost ripping my earlobes off. I feel like I just got home from some random's house after a long night of drinking and dancing and sex!

Oh well. I have a ton of pictures to upload for you guys, so hang tight.

xx,
yours truly.

2009-03-12T20:22:00.002-04:00

Life as a working girl is an exhausting and overwhelming experience. For whatever reason I had this brilliant idea to involve myself in co-op and let me tell you, it has been the most emotionally wrecking experience ever. Not to mention that I'm also doing night school on Monday's and Wednesday's.
So basically if I follow through with all of this, I'll have 5 credits at the end of this semester which means that I only need to make up 2 over the summer and then I'm done with high school for good.

Oh and if anyone ever tells you that people mature in the workplace, they are dead wrong.

Work is exactly like high school, especially with the gossip, oh my goooddd, it's ridiculous. I mean, I have thirty year old women talking about each other in the rudest of ways.

I watched the entire first season of Private Practice a couple of days ago and I realized that Addison is my 'power animal' not to mention that I adore her eyes and her hair. She knows how to play the 'guy game' and she knows how to play it well, that's what I'm trying to do right now. Chris and I are kind of on a hiatus and I'm just trying to give him space and let him know that he's not that big of a part in my life.

Ever since Derek got his licence, I've wanted him to drive me around because well, we all know what guys with cars are like. He picked me up before night school last week and we did go driving, it was absolutely adorable. The car kept stalling and he'd have to turn off the ignition and then turn it back on and we'd be on our way again, ahaha, I've been spending my time in a lot of standards lately.

I got a haircut and a dye job done recently. The only picture(s) that I have of it are on facebook and I'm way too lazy to link it to my blog, just drop in on my stickam whenever I'm live and you'll see it. I'm kind of dissappointed though because the red is fading and now it's some sort of bleachyorange colour.
I'm thinking of getting my teeth whitened because I feel like this constant consumption of coffee and nicotine is making my teeth as yellow as ever, even though they don't look it. That and a french manicure on both my feet and my hands...and maybe a massage...and a few hours in a steam room...and Adam Lambert would be nice as well.

Speaking of which, have you guys been watching American Idol?
Mmm mm good.
:D

2009-03-05T06:51:00.001-05:00

I have never
ever
had to fight this hard
for one thing,
in my entire fucking life.

Wish me luck.

I'm a fucking idiot.

2009-02-21T11:13:00.000-05:00

2009-02-21T10:57:00.004-05:00

I have an issue with people touching me,
it's like instant recoil.
Honestly.
I can be walking through a mall and someone will bump into my arm...
followed by me jumping ten feet away from them because I don't enjoy the feeling of having people touch me.

Maybe this all relates to my social problems.

I hate meeting new people, it makes me way too nervous.
When I get nervous, I clam up and refuse to talk.
I sit there and stare,
my common excuse being that 'I'm thinking.'
Not to mention that it sends chills through my spine,
not good ones either.
Not the ones that you get when you meet someone that you just have to have.
The ones that come when something bothers you immensely.

Maybe this all relates to me worrying too much about what people think of me.

I'm constantly on guard, trying to please everyone that I know,
only because in my own mind I have to be perfect every second of the day.
This places so much stress on me, which is why I don't hang out with my friends as often as I'd like to,
you all have way too many expectations.
As I observe you I get to understand what you think and how you think,
and you are all judgemental.
But then again who isn't?

Maybe this all relates to racism and prejudice.

Another reason as to why I'm constantly on guard is because of my skin colour.
People don't talk to me because I look like I'm east/west Indian.
The people who I want to be around don't look twice because I look like I'm from Pakistan or Trinidad,
because somehow we've (as humanity) developed this judgement against east Indians.
Especially Pakistanians.
We claim to hate the way that they smell like curry and how they're over populating our country.
Who's to say that they don't hate the smell of our designer perfumes and that they wish that we could all be terminated so they could live in the country on their own?

Maybe this all relates to how fucking incompetent humanity is.

If you say the word 'nigger' you are incompetent,
if you need to swear to make a point come across then you are incompetent,
if you don't take a step back and analyze a situation from another person's perspective then you are incompetent.

If I had it my way, I would erase everyone on the planet and start it all over.

I wish that we hadn't turned into this, I am embarrassed for our civilization.

xx,
Tiara von Grimm.

2009-02-19T16:31:00.003-05:00

Hey guys!

Today has been such a busy day for me because I've been working on all of the projects and assignments that I've missed from co-op, it's such an intense workload. I woke up at 10 AM and was writing away until 1:30 PM without breaks. It was worth it though because I'm all finished.

Afterward I started watching the season finale of Blush. It was this TV show on Slice (channel 41) that dealt with make up. The make up artists have two challenges per show, one challenge being an award challenge where they won an advantage for the elimination challenge which was the determining factor on whether they remained in the competition or not. From the beginning of the season I had picked my favourite artist and his name was Nolan. Needless to say, he won the entire thing!

I gave myself a paraffin wax and a hair treatment so now I feel fresh and clean :]

Last night was probably one of the most exciting nights that I've ever had in my life and the funny thing is that I didn't even do anything epic. I went over to Chris' and played Trivial Pursuit and Scrabble. I was a complete failure at both games because I just gave up, eventually. I have this issue with not winning and I wasn't winning during either game...I'm a sore loser :p Rararar and this was probably the highlight of the night:

Me: What do you want?
Chris: I want you.
Me: Then you have me.
Chris: Now I do.
alsdja.:D

I officially start work on Monday, so wish me luck, I'm going to need it terribly.

Oh and if you want to REALLY help me out, there are ads on the right side of my blog page that look like this:

If you could all PLEASE click the links, there's no catch, you don't have to fill out any forms or anything, all you have to do is simply click on it. It gives me $.25 per visit and I intend on cashing the cheques and using the money to help fund my project that I'm working on. I guess that I'll give you a little background on the project just so you know that it's valid.

A couple of months ago I wanted to change the lives of the homeless, not just by volunteering at a homeless shelter, I wanted to actually make a drastic change. This innovative idea lead me to think that I could potentially make 'survival bags' for the homeless. I was thinking of including: blankets, extra clothes (Value Village will be quite useful for this), toothbrushes, toothpaste, trail mix, bottles of water, etc. I think that it'll help them, especially through the trying winter months. I realize that $.25 per click doesn't seem like a lot of money but any help would count!

So please, consider it :]

xx,
tiara von grimm.

2009-02-15T20:31:00.001-05:00

2009-02-15T19:50:00.002-05:00

Please, Mommy? :D

It's Sunday evening and I'm watching Criss Angel's new season of Mindfreak on DVD, waiting for Chris to call so I can go out and do something tonight. It's only the first episode so I can't really give a reasonable critique on the show...but so far it's not anything too exciting. Aside from the fact that he did a trick that involved cutting a man's head open to attain something.

Tomorrow marks our official second Family Day, is anyone doing anything exciting? I certainly know that I'm not. Though I want to go to the Eaton's Center, Z 103.5 said that they were going to be open tomorrow. If I do that then I'll be able to get my SIN card which in turn will allow me to get a job.

As soon as I get paid, I have so many things that I need to buy.

xx,
tiara von grimm.

2009-02-12T21:08:00.002-05:00

Today I took the day off and spent it with my Mom and we basically cleaned the entire house. Theeeenn I had made plans to hang out with Chris and I followed through.

When I got to the mall we started looking at glasses for him and he found a couple of pairs. He calls them 'Clark Kent glasses' 'cause they're thick rimmed and really squared. I know that they sound a little awkward but honestly, he looked amazing in all of them.

We only hung out for a hour 'cause we both had to leave at 6 but it was fun nonetheless :]

Aside from that, I realized who my real friends are. People who aren't afraid of leaving certain people for certain reasons. I'm officially done with trying to be nice when I know that I'm continuously being stabbed in the back. World, be prepared, 'cause I'm back and I'm bitchier than ever.

This weekend is going to be completely uneventful because I believe that I don't really have any plans...except for a party which I'm doing a commissioned shoot at.

I wanted to take pictures in the photobooth today because I just love how those pictures turn out. Photobooths and disposable cameras, their products turn out so raw but they're gorgeous at the same time.

I'm watching American Idol right now and my boy, Cody Sheldon, is currently doing a face off with some geek. I have this gut feeling that he's going to go home and well...

I may actually die a little on the inside...

let us wait on the verdict.

Cody got eliminated.

I am officially boycotting this show and I am also never blogging about it ever again.

But on the bright side I did find his youtube account and his possible MySpace, though I cannot be sure about the MySpace since we all know how insane people are...stealing pictures and such *cough*

xx,
tiara von grimm.

2009-02-07T18:55:00.004-05:00

Before I start, I just want everyone to know that I have an update for recently tolerable concerts that are coming up within the next few months.

Despised Icon - 28FEB09 - Kathedral

Blessed By A Broken Heart - 1MAR09 - Reverb

We the Kings - 5MAR09 - Mod Club

Bloc Party - 12MAR09 - Kool Haus

The Devil Wears Prada - 5APR09 - The Phoenix

Alesana - 23APR09 - Opera House

Parkway Drive - 23APR09 - Reverb

I'll be at every single one of those shows so if you end up going, look near the bar because we all know that's where I'm going to be!

Last night was okay, I spent the evening with Chris and we watched Flight of the Conchords. It's this TV show about two musicians from New Zealand named Bret and Jermaine (sp?) and their life in New York City trying to make it 'big'. It's a comedy and it's also the most random thing that I have ever seen in my entire life. I'd advise you to watch it if you're into having a good laugh once in a while.

Speaking of television/movies, does anyone else really want to see Confessions of a Shopaholic? It's definitely on my to see list, along with He's Just Not That Into You.

Originally over March Break I was supposed to go to Montreal with a bunch of people but due to a chain of recent events I've basically decided to null that idea and I've decided to rent out an 8 person lodge at the Blue Mountains resort. Two places are already booked, so if you're interested then contact me at either:

a) my cell number, which you should know.

b) tiaraashleighla@live.com

We'd be leaving on February 19th and we'd be returning on the 22nd, so that's basically three nights in absolute bliss, guys! Oh, and hurry up because spots are going to fill up quickly.

I'm really craving an iced coffee right about now, or maybe a chai tea frapp with whipped cream. Mmm. I think that it's the near spring weather that we had today that's put me in the summer Starbucks mood.

I really really need a hair treatment and a manicure, I feel like my hair's about to fall out slowly but surely and like my nails are going to rot off.

Mmm okay I'm about to make a quick run to Starbucks and then go out to sushi with Jamie.

What are some movies that you want to see?

& what's your favourite drink from Starbucks?

xx,

tVg

2009-02-03T09:03:00.003-05:00

okay so basically i've been way too busy lately to even think about blogging.
seriously, my days start by waking up then i go to class and thennn i spend my evenings with chris.

he came over for the first time the other day and we were on stickam,
apparently everything that i buy from value village constitutes for dress up time.
aha

it was a fun night nonetheless sinceeee we watched movies and yeah.
lol.
i tried to make him dinner that night but that failed miserably, beyond miserably, actually. i had this brilliant idea to start making spaghetti, not realizing that i didn't have any ground beef for the sauce so then i ended up making makeshift ravioli and he came over and nearly puked 'cause it looked so gross. i mean, i don't blame him in the least, lol.

yesterday i skipped school to gain a few extra hours of sleep and then chris and i went down to square one because he wanted to get some dvd's and a shirt.
we basically walked around the mall for like three hours, eventually finding absolutely nothing, but it was fun nonetheless.
i forced him to go into Coach 'cause i wanted to look at purses, obviously, and i found this really like...gorgeous one lol.
so i ask the sales rep how much it is and she says 500 and something dollars but for whatever reason it didn't phase him at all.
him being chris.
i swear to god, i nearly had a panic attack and he was just like 'do you want it?' of course i said yes and then he said that he was probably going to get it for me for valentines day.
i swear, he spoils me to no end.
i mean, every time i would see something that i wanted, he'd offer to buy it.
insane.

aaanndd then at the end of the night we were leaving SQ1 and we just happened to see pan. if you're aware of my past situation with pan then you'd understand why it was possibly the most awkward experience of my life, considering that he was with his girlfriend. ahaha i almost died, but she's pretty and she seems like a really nice girl so all the best to him :]

when we got back to shoppers world from mississauga chris was wanting to go out to the social and invited me to go but i decided that school was more important, for whatever reason, and whatever his plans were didn't exactly work out so he ended up taking my bus back with me so make sure that i got home okay.
the one unconventional thing that i love about us is that we can be having a really really really good day and then before we leave, we always have these serious heartfelt talks that always end up hurting one of us.
last night's was pretty bad and we just HAD to start it like five minutes before his bus came.
oh well, yesterday was fun anyways.

other than that i saw this really cute plaid dress and this really nice plaid shirt at french connection,
i must go back and buy them once i have money.

aside from that, absolutely nothing worth blogging about has happened. at aaaallllll.
it's just been my boy and sleep and school :]

i should really get back to bed because that's why i didn't even end up going today.

argg.

r.i.p ian vuitton.

xx,
tiara von grimm.

2009-01-23T22:31:00.003-05:00

REALLY
REALLY
BIG
NEWS
REGARDING
CHRIS.

Him and I were talking last night via text messages as usual and he had told me to surprise him with whether I was going to see him or not. And so I did, I made it seem like I wasn't even at the mall and I told him that I left him a present outside of Staples. He literally ran out of work to pick up this 'present' which in fact happened to be me. The fact that he didn't have nicotine in his system was a contributing factor to why he didn't exactly react the way that I had intended but he was surprised regardless and I was happy.
For some reason though, once he went back to work, I couldn't leave the mall. I actually and honestly felt insane for the first time in my life because I have never felt that way about one guy ever. I sat in the mall from 11 AM until 3 something PM just waiting, for what? I didn't know. I eventually became extremely bored and so I made Natalie come down to see me and she did. We went to some comic book store and looked at manga and she bought a Fruits Basket one aaanndd then she had to go because her Mom didn't know that she was out :o
I love my friends.

Anyways, he eventually ended up coming out and he was m-i-s-e-r-a-b-l-e, I honestly wanted to punch him and tell him to get happy quickly before I was to smash his head in. But after we had another cigarette he was okay.

Now,
for the amazing and unpredictable part. When he was about to go back to work for the second time he just randomly grabbed my shoulders and...welll....
kissed me.
Yes, I was kissed by someone who may actually be the love of my life.
Aha.

Speaking of which, I have to bake him a cake for his birthday on Sunday and I want to get him this thing that he really really wanted. I just have to figure out if I can grab some cash from my parents because I really need to get this bag for him.
I'm kind of nervous for Sunday because it's just going to be him and I...and his parent (not sure if it's Mom or Dad) in his house.
But mainly him and I in his bed.

I'm nervous, and the more that I talk about it the less excitement there is inside of me.

Actually, I'm kind of already upset because he's out a bar this entire weekend (minus Sunday).
I don't like it. ]:

I'm watching Max Payne and it's ridiculous.
Just saying.

xx,
tiara von grimm.

2009-01-23T00:57:00.002-05:00

I'm going to try to get a quick blog in considering that it's nearing 1 AM and I have a law exam to wake up for tomorrow.

Last night was probably the most amazing night of my entire life due to the fact that I literally spent four hours in a mall with the most amazing person that I have ever met. I saw Chris for a bit during the day and then I went home to get some rest, which was extremely unbeneficial considering that he was on my mind the entire time making me unable to catch any shut eye. After my attempted resting period I got back up, fixed my make up and literally left the house in my pajamas. Actually, they weren't exactly pajama's....but they were clothes from American Apparel that I wear to bed.

Anyways, we walked around the mall over and over and sat in the food court and talked about each other and our lives and he's probably the most inspirational person on the entire planet. Theeenn, we held hands. I know that it's not really that big of a deal, considering that I hold hands with everyone but this guy has this way of making you feel like you're the only girl in the whole entire world just when he holds your hand. I remember when I was dating Derrek a while ago, he'd always rub his thumb over my fingers when we were holding hands and Chris did it as well, it made my heart jump into my throat.
Literally.

Needless to say, we ended up leaving the mall at exactly 9 PM and I just wanted more and more of him. So today, after my interview for co-op I went to go see him at work again, it's kind of our little tradition now. I mean, I go to the mall just so he can take a break and have a cigarette with me and then I go back home. I literally mission a hour and a half (there and back added) to have ten minutes of his company and it's entirely worth it.

Back to what I was saying about today though. I picked out a work appropriate outfit so that I would absolutely ace the interview since I had the talking part down pat. Needless to say, I looked like an old grandmother so I equipped myself with an extra shirt to change into once I got to the mall. Much to my dismay I hadn't counted the fact that the shirt had in fact shrunk so you could see most of my butt when I was walking and that is definitely not an attractive feat. when you're wearing a grey thong so I ended up making a make shift outfit out of what I had. The funny thing is that I believe that I looked my worst today, well, I guess it would be yesterday now, but he thought that I looked amazing. I didn't even have make up on, guys!

The similarities between us are amazing. He's half Australian too. Can anyone say Jay from The City? Like, hello!

I have my last exam tomorrow so I should really try to read over my study notes before I fall asleep, I just wanted to update everyone on my ever exciting love life.

xx,
tiara von grimm.

2009-01-20T21:23:00.003-05:00

Just when I thought that things had reached rock bottom I was put into a situation where I was brought back above surface, I mean, someone that I barely know saved me from myself today.

I was at the mall, completely upset over a recent break up with youknowwho, until I walked past Fabricland. I saw this...this guy, and he was completely breathtaking, I mean, everything about him screamed flawless(ness) and ahh.
So a couple of my friends gave him my number and we started texting each other all day.
I have never, in my entire life, ever felt so wanted. Actually, that was a lie...lets just say that the last time that I felt this way was when I had first met Dakota and when my whole world had been turned upside down.

His name is Chris.
It's ironic isn't it? Kris, Christopher James, and now Chris, what's wrong with me?
Anyways, he actually took the time out of his day to try to get to know me, unlike half of my guy friends that I have right now.

I just wish that I knew what words to place together to describe this feeling but it's really the unexplainable. You know when you get butterflies in your stomach and your head spins and you shake because you're so god damn nervous?
Multiply that feeling by one hundred and you'll know how I feel every time my phone vibrates, signaling that I have a new text message.

Him and I are...
we're so much alike. From cheesecake to Norma Jean to photography, he's fucking perfect, guys.

Be excited for me,
and hopefully I'll have beneficial things to say from this day forward.

2009-01-17T01:11:00.002-05:00

Today was a mess! I woke up on time, for once in my life, and I had my photography ISU, coffee mug, cigarette, and keys in my hands.
So I leave the house and I didn't realize that it was going to be as cold as it was this morning,
keep in mind that I left in JUST enough time for my bus to be at the stop when I reached the stop so there was no time to go back inside of the house.
So I'm walking for like ten minutes holding all of this crap with my hands completely exposed to the cold weather that was just way too intense for my body to handle...
because my hands actually physically froze.
I honestly could not move my hands and it terrified me but considering that I had this huge committment to school today, I had no choice but to go.
So I get on the bus and sit down with much difficulty,
and then they start to thaw.
I have NEVER been in that much pain in my entire life. It honestly felt like every single inch of my skin was slowly peeling off. Actually, it hurt me so much that I actually became nauseous and almost vomited.
Needless to say, I think that I've done permanent damage to my fingertips because it's now 1:16 AM and they still hurt.

I had to present my photog ISU today and I have never been more embarrassed in my whole entire life. I had prepared this script that I was going to use so I felt extremely prepared. That is until I get to class and he says that he doesn't want us reading off of a script, but rather that he wants us to explain why we chose each picture.
It was complicated and he critiqued me the hardest out of everyone but much to his dismay, I attacked him back and I ended up winning that 'argument' of course.

I also found out that someone who I used to know decided to talk to my boyfriend's sister a little while ago and promised to 'spoil her rotten' I believe is what he said. What really upset me aside from the fact that the girl isn't someone who I admire to any extent, is that how am I supposed to put these thoughts into a child's head. I mean, it's not fair that he has one girlfriend promise her one thing and then he has another girlfriend promise her another thing. It's hilarious because no matter what I do or how much I beg or how hard I try, I always have to follow up behind something that someone else has already done.

I have a dentist appointment tomorrow and quite frankly I'm kind of excited. Since I've been drinking coffee like water these past few months I really want to get my teeth whitened. Not to mention that I also discovered that I have a chip in my front tooth which I want fixed as well. I'll be sparkling after they're done with me. After the dentist I'm thinking of going to my hair dresser to get him to cut my hair. I mean, I want to keep the length because I am trying to grow it...but I want really really choppy layers, I have a huge obsession with layers. Theeenn after the salon I intend on going to my massage therapist and getting the rub down of a life time and then a mani/pedi with my mom, for once.

Speaking of which, I'm beginning to get really worried about her. Mostly because I think that she has something medically wrong with her and she doesn't have a health card...so if she were to be dying, it wouldn't be easy for her to be admitted into the hospital. Unless my ignorance is getting the best of me right now.

I really need to sort out my priorities.

I worked out for a really long time the other day and my calves hurt more than anything in this entire world. I think that I was doing the step thing for a hour and I didn't stop for a break once, it was ridiculous. Not to mention the copious amount of yoga that followed and strength training as well.
I swear, if I didn't have the Wii, I'd be a fat couch potato. I think that I'm funny because I had the girl trainer for a while (WiiFit, obviously) and then I changed it to the male trainer because it'd give me more motivation.

I'm exhausted and my appointment starts at 8 AM today so I'm going to try to get some rest.

xx,
tiara von grimm.

2009-01-14T20:16:00.003-05:00

Good evening everyone!

I'm completely swamped with school work, it's ridiculous. Not to mention that skipping class hasn't really helped my situation, but oh well! I have a huge law test first period, second I have lunch, third I have an entire ISU due at the end of photography class that I have yet to even get half way through, and fifth I believe that we're just watching a movie.

Things with Derek, oh Derek.
He is a very complicated and confusing person who has a knack for leading girls on and dropping them like flies. The issue with him is that his friends have a really big part in his girlfriend choosing 'curriculum' I guess you could say. Regardless, I'm not the blonde cheerleader who shops at Abercrombie and Fitch and who listens to 'awesome' music and who has 'awesome' friends and who enjoys having an 'awesome' time getting drunk. But the funny thing is that when he's not around people and when it's just us, he's so different. I have never met someone who looks so peaceful when they're sleeping. I mean, I know that sounds really creepy, and Derek if you're reading this don't think I'm a huge creeper, but! He has a beautiful smile and when he's sleeping it just, he smirks and it's ahdakjdhasdja kill me dead.
For someone who has such a hard exterior he has such an amazing personality on the inside, once you get to know him.
One day.

I'm watching American Idol and if you were watching it last night then you'll know who I'm about to talk about. There was this guy who auditioned and he makes horror films on his video camera and oooooohhh my god.
My heart fell out of my chest because god damn.
Mmm.
:D
My favourite part about American Idol is when they show all of the ridiculous auditions and I can sit here and laugh about them unconditionally. I know it's a terrible thing to do, but some of them are actually terrible, so terrible that I actually think that they do it on purpose.

I've found another new obsession chai and peppermint tea. No, not together, but they're both amazing seperately. Flickr is also my new obsession. I believe that once I have all of my pictures uploaded I'll post a link on here for everyone to view.

Oh, I'm trying the new Chanel perfume, Chanel No.5, it's an odd smell. I'm used to sharp scents like Alien and Rock 'N Rose but Chanel No.5 reminds me of baby powder and old people.

I have a piece of advice for every girl who's stressed about something or other. YOGA. I do a hour of yoga every morning before I leave to catch my bus and not only am I losing more weight but I'm also feeling a lot better for first period class. Speaking of class, my aunt Kath wants to take me to photography classes with her so that she won't be alone but I'm not too excited about that. My issue with classes dealing with photography is that they give you a skeleton of what they want and then you fill the rest in with your own creativity. I, on the other hand, want to make my own skeleton rather than having a premade one, you know what I mean?

I can't believe that Jason Castro's brother tried out for American Idol. I must say, I'm more excited to see Jason again than having to watch his brother sing a Gavin DeGraw song.

I'm going to go bake more muffins,
and then I'm going to fry up some tofu,
and then I'm gonna eat my tofu and do my yoga.

xx.

&wishmeluckwithd.r.

2009-01-09T21:22:00.003-05:00

So it's Friday night and I'm doing nothing other than watching television with my parents and now, well, blogging.

I was thinking about how I cannot wait for summer because I really want to mod my Legalize LA t-shirt that I bought a year ago from American Apparel when it was my first time being in the store.

That shirt will forever hold my memories.

I'm on their website right now and I'm thinking about how badly I want to pick up a pair of ear muffs from American Apparel, actually. On boxing day I bought a ton of clothes and my significantly priced purchase allowed me to receive a free jersey scarf which is part of their new winter collection.

But aside from that, I'm browsing through their 'coming soon' section and there really isn't anything that's too appealing other than the California fleece big sweatshirt that will be part of the women's collection.

I can assure you that I will be one of the first people to be sporting it with my snake skin leggings! Or maybe with white ones, since it doesn't look too terrible in the image.

I must say, I'm extremely proud of myself and how large my AA collection as become. I can't go a day without wearing at least one thing from American Apparel and before I used to wish that I could have that luxury.

This weekend is going to be so bland, hopefully something arises that will be interesting enough to participate in. I mean, my parents are both going out tomorrow and I may go to the movies with Dahlia to see The Unborn. I would write a synopsis but with the overwhelming amount of commercials that have been displayed over all of the typical teenage channels around here, I'm pretty sure that you can guess what it's about.

Today was an interesting day, considering that Derek and I got into a huge argument the day before last. He ended up saying a lot of things that men should never say to women and I did the exactly same thing, I suppose. Needless to say, I took the day off yesterday because I wanted to recuperate from what was said and from the quick hospital trip that I had to make. I've decided that he's not a significant part of my life and that if he's not willing to actually make an effort to be significant, then I might as well make him as disposable as everyone else that I know.

I made a recent trip to the MAC store at Square One and I bought an eyeshadow palette with four shades (commonly known as a quad), black eyeliner, powder blush, and paint for my eyes. The rep that I was speaking to was telling me that purchasing a paint was a better idea than buying eyelid primer because the paint ensured less creases and less grease, whereas the primer ensure less grease but it doesn't eliminate the creases entirely. I must say, though I have not tried the primer, the paint that I use is sublime! Shockingly enough, my shade is Sublime Natural. It comes in a tube much like an oil paint tube (used for painting art) and it results in a quick and simple application. The best way of application is to apply the paint to your fingertip and then spread it along your eyelid as if your finger was the eye shadow brush and of course it is applied before you apply your eyeshadow. You would think that the product would be heavy but it goes on lightly and it dries with a shadowy and powdery finish so your eyeshadow doesn't become thick. If you haven't purchased eye paints before, I would strongly recommend this product above all products.

Aside from that, I've been listening to a lot of the Smashing Pumpkins recently, I have no idea why. Looking back at what used to be so popular in the 90's and 80's really gives you a reality check. I mean, we all remember VHS tapes, right? Well according to Darin, Nicole, and Paul from MTV Live, the VHS tape is officially dead. After the VHS came the DVD which was an amazing innovation and everyone was ecstatic about that one. Now we have Blu-Ray DVD'S (haha to you Microsoft) which provide a clearer and more beautiful picture. Next thing you know DVD's will be replaced by miniature Blu-Ray discs.

Oh my, how things are changing.

xx

2009-01-07T11:23:00.003-05:00

i'm sitting in photography class and i just realized the versatility of backpacks. i never really understood how people could sit in class with their bags still on their backs until this particular moment.
it's actually quite comfortable.

so i've encountered a new obsession, american apparel hoodies and a copious amount of rings on my fingers. it's ridiculous, i wear at least two rings on every finger now.

oh yes i should blog about yesterday.

i slept in until fourth period, which was brilliant of me by the way. thennn i had a terrible period, i had to deal with my friend's depressing state of mind, which i wasn't very good at because i hate whiny children. i eventually told him to man up and realize what he was saying, i mean, he's blowing everything way out of proportion and i felt like stabbing him in the jugular. needless to say i was upset and so i started texting derek and that eventually turned into him inviting me to come over, which i did. so i skipped last period and jet setted over to his house (which is literally two minutes away from the school).

i supposed i had expected way too much from him, or from the situation, which is probably what made it so awkward at first. we were lying on opposite couches and then as time passed, he started sitting closer and closer to me until i eventually almost had my feet up on his lap. if he reads this it's going to be sufficiently awkward, remind me not to put this URL in my msn name. anyways, i wanted to kiss him so badly, i mean, i've never wanted anything so bad in my life but for some reason i refrained from doing so. maybe it was because my exboyfriend decided to text me right in the middle of my thought process. anyways, we were surfing facebook and talking and fooling around and stuff and then his brother came home.
his brother who listens to techno, maybe i should date his brother instead :p oh yes, i forgot to mention, they're twins which, well, yeah, i've never seen such beautiful children in my life.

when i decided to leave, i had to walk to shoppers world in the dark and i was terrified. not to mention that i had to pee really bad. then i get this random text from my mother claiming that she's at shoppers world and that they could give me a ride home. of course i was ecstatic because i didn't feel like taking the 45 minute bus ride to get home, plus i wanted to get there before they did since i completely lied and said that i had gone to every class. so basically, i wanted to get the phone when the school called.

this is the funny part, which wasn't funny at all at the time, but now that i look back at it, it wasn't that terrible. i'm in the mall looking for my mother and she's giving me directions on how to get there until she realizes that she's not at shoppers world but she's at trinity commons. so by this time i was pissed, tired, hungry, and still had to pee really bad. and no, i didn't even think twice about using the bathroom in the mall, i have a severe paranoia of public washrooms. but i got home alright without a scratch on me.

my usual night routine consists of commissioned shoots, shower, dinner, bed, phone with mike samsa. last night i talked to the kid for maybe 10 minutes and it's starting to make me feel terrible. we used to be able to talk for hours about absolutely nothing and now i'm always tired because i'm always busy. so i have to get off of the phone early and it just makes me feel bad, aha. i'll figure out a way to juggle my social life with my work life.
yes. that is what i'll do.

everyone's talking about new years resolutions and you know what i say to that?
FUCK IT.
i always make resolutions and i never follow them which basically defeats the purpose of making them in the first place. so of course, since i'm brilliant, i just refuse to make any resolutions and whatever i happen to accomplish, i accomplish.
smart, innit?

i just realized something else, i haven't watched Twilight in ages. i used to watch it every night at least three or four times since my grandfather burnt a cam copy for me. but recently i've been glued to MTV.

speaking of which, make sure that you watch The City every Monday night in the ten spot (at 10:00 PM on channel 52).

If you watched The Hills then you'll know Whitney Port (she was Lauren's best friend and co-worker at both Teen Vogue and People's Revolution). Whitney was offered a job at DvF (Diane von Furstenberg) who is a fashion designer and had to move to the city (New York City) to pursue this career track. This new show is basically her life, it's the Hills, just in a completely different state with a completely different main character. If you haven't started watching it yet then I would strongly reccommend that you check it out on mtv.ca, the season just started and it's only three episodes in, I believe.

i'm also excited for the new real world that premiers tonight at ten. there's a morman and a transgendered person on there so that's going to spark up a lot of drama and as we all know, drama is my middle name!

i haven't done my top ten music list in a while, i should actually do top 100 since i'm probably up to that amount anyways.
but no, i wouldn't put you through that much reading.

10. stereo speakers - the pink spiders
9. come to daddy - aphex twin
8. afterlife - avenged sevenfold
7. eat you up - boa
6. she makes dirty words sound pretty - dance gavin dance
5. just freakin' - freakadelika (i heard them playing this in american apparel once and i instantly fell in love with it)
4. still alive - GLaDOS (my cousins love singing this song on rockband)
3. gives you hell - the all american rejects
2. supermassive black hole - muse
1. skyway avenue - we the kings

that's all that i have to say for now but be prepared because i'm pretty sure that there's going to be many more blog entries now that i'm single and free for real this time. aha!

2009-01-02T17:22:00.004-05:00

I love how he promised me forever, again, and broke that promise, again.
This blog isn't going to be the most uplifting blog on the face of the planet but I have to get it out, I just have to.

I met this guy a year and about four days ago and I was ecstatic because he was everything that I had ever wanted in a person, not to mention that he had the aesthetics to die for. Little did I know that that was all he had to offer.

I allowed his ex girlfriend to get into my head and manipulate my thought processes which is what doomed us from the start and I can say that with absolute certainty. It all started going downhill the week after we dated, I accused him of things that later on proved to be true from anyone else's point of view. Unfortunately I was too blinded by whatever had hit me that I had completely ignored the obvious and refused to believe things that everyone was telling me.

I gave this person my heart, my soul, my body, and my mind without a second thought because I thought that he wouldn't abuse it and use it against me. Yet again, unfortunately, that's all he proved to do. But this didn't occur without my assistance, of course. I fucked him up, badly, and I paid for those mistakes, just in ways that I had never thought he was capable of.

He left for Seattle for a couple of weeks and I had cheated on him half way through that vacation because he was barely capable of making me feel wanted. Jason Tansley was great while I knew him and while he was a part of my life, that was until I found out what my boyfriend had also been doing behind my back. There was another girl in his life, and of course, he had broken a promise that he had made previously, saying that he wouldn't talk to that girl anymore.

The funny thing is, that one person damaged everything beyond all repair and why we let her do this, I will never know. For up to six months (as far as I'm concerned) he cheated on me with her, lying to both of us to keep us both happy and I most certainly commend him for those actions. It takes a really sick bastard/bastardess to be able to fuck around with two girls simultaneously. So congratulations, you won the devious award.

At one point we had broken up and he called me, making sexual noises on the phone to encourage my thoughts. He tried to prove that he was in the process of having sex with the same girl that he had cheated on me with and my God, I felt like my entire world was falling apart right before my eyes. It wasn't because I was upset that he was having sex with someone else, it was because I was scared of him. What kind of person would be able to do that to someone else without thinking twice? That's the question that I kept asking myself, especially after he had told me that it was him and his cousin that performed that little 'act'.

I forgave him, just like he had forgiven me a copious amount of times, I mean, I owed it to him, right? Or at least that's what I kept telling myself when I tried to fall asleep at night.

That is until I started conversing with her which turned into harassment which turned into someone, me, becoming completely depressed, anorexic, and in a deep hatred with what she saw in the mirror. Even though that was torture enough, the abuse ensued.

He had another girl friend who was at his house one evening when I had called. Amongst the kissing that they were giving to each other and the uncanny resemblance towards another event that had happened in my life, I also felt like my world was crumbling to pieces at that exact moment. He had asked her to lie in bed with him and at that one moment I was truly disgusted with what I faced but I forgave him and went on with it anyway.

Even though the past year has held many disgusting and ridiculous events that I haven't yet described in this blog, it was the most memorable year that I will ever experience. I thank him for making me who I am today and for proving to me that men aren't needed in my life to make me feel better about myself. I also thank him for making me realize what love is and how it feels to lose it.

The future is going to hold many obstacles in my life and the more complicated I make them, the more exciting it will all be.

So thank you, and yes, even though you have broken my heart more times than I could count on two hands, I still love you.
Only because as a human being who actually feels, I cannot fall out of love that fast, but for my sanity I hope that I do.

I wish you all of the best.

2008-12-22T00:54:00.002-05:00

There was one thing
that I never wanted to be told
and it was just said
so now I'm done.

2008-12-19T00:16:00.002-05:00

I think that I've watched enough Robert Pattinson videos on YouTube to last me a lifetime. I still don't understand what girls find so attractive about him, I mean, in real life he looks like a disheveled teenage boy that was kicked out of his house and has been living on the street for years. It's quite unattractive and I want to give him a serious hair treatment, or something that will make it less greasy, at least.

Definitely not on my 'to do' list.

I'm so happy that the week is almost over and that means that I have two whole weeks of vacation. My problem is that I wait for Christmas, which is on Thursday and that erases half of my vacation.

I have a family function to attend this Sunday and I am expected (literally) to bring a date, so hopefully my boyfriend will pull through and come with me so that I'm not frowned upon, which is also something that has been happening a lot whenever I'm around family.

Recently I've been attending dance classes, don't ask, but they're probably the most exhausting things that I have ever been a part of in my entire life. Not to mention that my lungs are as black as coal from smoking cigarettes that I lose my breath half way through the routines.

Speaking of which, I found the choreography that I want to learn for my dance exam which is coming up in February. I'm going to keep it as a surprise due to the fact that I have a major problem with sharing music with other people, as previously stated in some blog.

I was supposed to go to the S4C show in Norval tomorrow to see my friend's band play but that's not going to happen because a) I have no ride and b) there's going to be this giant snow storm, apparently. The only issue with the snow storm is that it's now 12:24 AM and there is no sign of snow nor are there any clouds in the sky that indicate any type of precipitation.

Lately everything has been up and down, it's been like a rollercoaster except one without a track, it's been all over the place. I've been so stressed about everything from school to relationships that I've actually made myself physically ill for the past week and a half. I need to figure out what it is that's making me so upset and I need to cut it out of my life for good because it's this inevitable failure thing that I keep thinking about. I know what you're thinking and no, I'm not cutting him out of my life, thank you. I just went through a two day struggle to get on his good side again, not going through that much pain ever again, ever.

Speaking of which, my one year is in 12 days, which will make this my longest relationship, officially.

Let's just hope that we can make it until then, actually, lets hope that we can make it until tomorrow.

I ended up making him upset today and I didn't mean to, obviously, but I did, somehow and he hasn't spoken to me since earlier this afternoon.

Which means that I'm going to have to fix another issue.

OH and I have to remember to finish my Christmas cards that I'm sending to all of my closest friends. They're adorable. I bought black scrapbooking paper for the main part of the card and this adorable grey and white vintage print paper for the decals.

I honestly cannot wait until Christmas. I find it hilarious how people are so proud of the fact that they enjoy Christmas due to the fact that it's 'family time.' I, on the other hand, enjoy Christmas because it's the one time (aside from my birthday) when I can get free presents and I'm not expected to buy anyone anything in return.

I bet if I were to compare that paragraph to anything that I've written since I started this blog I'd see the dramatic change in my attitude since then. Honestly, I am the most vain, shallow, demanding, greedy, and spoiled person on the face of this planet. I owe it all to Shrek.

I don't think that it's necessarily a bad thing though, is it? People who are narcissistic gain narcissistic friends and those over confident friends are always the most beautiful, so who cares? If I can walk amongst a crowd of beauty kings and queens, I would be happy. I'd give anything to be drooled over, not that I'm not already.

Honestly, you should spend one second in my Science class and see what I mean. I have three boys who are always at my side and it's rather annoying because I do have a boyfriend and he is the most attractive person that I have ever met in my entire life.

I love that, don't you?

Beautiful boy.

(L)

Anyways, before I allow my ego to shoot through the roof I'm going to try to get some sleep and attempt to blog tomorrow, even though I never follow through with blogging again.

Aha oh I love me.

2008-12-16T21:24:00.002-05:00

Seventeen years that I've been alive and this is the smartest thing that I've said;

I say:
You have a mind set of an eleven year old.

I say:
You're incapable of loving someone.

I say:
You have no initiative, and you're going absolutely no where in life.

I say:
You don't know what you want, you cheat on people, you are so blinded by whatever lies you've wound up to make your life seem perfect.

I say:
Your life is far from perfect.

I say:
You have no family, a girlfriend who I can't even begin to talk about, a house that isn't even yours, no education, and you're possibly and hopefully going to die before you turn nineteen.

I say:
You pick girls up and make them believe that you love them and then you drop them, just like you dropped me.

I say:
You promise forever and you break that promise EVERY single time, EVERY time.

I say:
You are incapable of committment and it's sad, really, I actually honestly pity you and I think that's a good thing

I say:
Because it's the only thing keeping me from crying, my pity for you.

I say:
You're going to promise her forever, you're going to promise to meet her

I say:
You're going to sit there and tell me that you're moving in with her

I say:
when you have absolutely no intention of doing so.

I say:
Because you KNOW that we weren't THAT bad through all of this.

I say:
We had our peak, and even at our peak, you wouldn't come see me.

I say:
I'm tired of being the ugly duckling and the second best, I deserve WAY more than that

I say:
And maybe that's what makes me so fucking amazing and brilliant.

I say:
The fact that I, along with Kori, and every other girl who you deem 'psychotic' are actually the smart ones.

I say:
We got out of it before you could mind fuck us anymore.

I say:
And you know what, Dakota?

I say:
When you fuck her over, she'll keep coming back, like I did, and you'll have so much fucking fun.

I say:
Because that's all you do, you fuck with girls and drop them on their heads.

I say:
It's pathetic and you are disgusting and you deserve nothing more than what you have.

2008-12-07T12:51:00.002-05:00

Alright, single again.

2008-12-07T02:44:00.002-05:00

CHRISTMAS :D

Okay so the original plan for today was that I was supposed to go down to Mississauga and do some house work for my Grandmother just so I could earn some extra money for Christmas, considering that my job doesn't pay so well (boo).
Needless to say, that plan got scratched and I ended up spending the morning with my parents, then things started to get increasingly interesting.
Navy Shawn called and told me that he was home early for Christmas vacation and he immediately asked if he could spend the night. I figured that since my parents were going to be out that it'd be fine, but I double checked with them anyways and they said okay.
So before Shawn came by, Marlon, Mom, and I went to this Conair/Cuisinart factory outlet thing where everything was 80% off! They had everything from hair straighteners to espresso machines and I felt like I was in beauty heaven.
I ended up buying a facial steamer and if you haven't tried one, you should go out and buy one immediately, I swear it changed my life. From there we went to Linen 'N Things and I bought these adorable vanilla coloured hangers with petite bows on them, very vintage, very affordable. They were on sale for $7, originally priced at $14.99. :D
Of course knowing me, I wanted to go shopping for clothes but I didn't dare to ask because I don't get my pay cheque until Thursday and I don't want to have to pay my parents back.
Around 2ish we came back home and Shawn was already waiting, apparently he had been waiting in his car for a decent 2 hours so I immediately began to feel bad, as usual!

From there, I went with Shawn to go look for a Christmas tree for my room whereas my parents went on their own to look for a Christmas tree for the kitchenette, since we usually put up 4 or 3 trees every year.
We found this quaint little farm WAAYYY up on Steeles and I bought the cutest fraser fir, it smells delicious, I love the smell of Christmas trees.

So here is my plan, since all of my friends read my blog, I want you all to create images on the computer and send them to this email address; tiarasleight@hotmail.com so then that way I can print out the images and make ornaments for my tree because it's looking kind of bare and it's really depressing.

Once all of the trees were put up and decorated I did my facial and gave Shawn a paraffin wax (another thing that you should try, if you haven't). It's basically a wax that you dip your hands in several times until you can't move them and then you put your hands together, wrap them in saran wrap and then place a towel around them to keep the heat in. The finished product is basically smooth hands that last for about a hour or two, but it's so worth those two hours!

Once 'spa day' was finished my Aunt Kath's friend Marian wanted me to model for her because she needed winter pictures to put up in her foyer so I agreed, of course! They came out gorgeous, once I get the photos I will definitely make sure to put them up. I'm going to try to describe it for you as best as I can.
Basically I was out in the snow (and it was snowing HUGE flakes that were gorgeous), I had a black waist length jacket on, a white beret, a white scarf, and white gloves. My hair was...well, all of it was curly except for my bangs. I looked Russian but like a cute Russian!

Oh my, last night I was talking to my friend Natalie (not the one from Brampton, this one lives in California) and she had no idea that Canadians spoke English. She was complaining about how she hasn't seen snow and so of course I told her to move to Canada. She replied with 'I can't move to Canada because I don't know how to speak French!' And I was like 'French is our second language, just like Spanish is yours. Just because Spanish is your second language doesn't mean that everyone in America only speaks Spanish.' I swear to god, I hate fullbred Americans, they're so fucking ignorant.

The only American that I can handle is Dakota :]
Who I miss unconditionally, by the way.

I can hear Shawn snoring through the wall (he's set up in the guest room) and I doubt that I'm going to be able to sleep tonight! Even though it's already 3 in the morning.

I should do my paraffin wax now :]

Have a good day everyone!

xx

2008-12-05T12:36:00.002-05:00

I AM IN SCIENCE CLASS.

it's funny because i haven't been to photography ingod knows how long and vacation starts in a couple of weeks.
i need to at least have 70's in all of my classes before i go into exams.
i was tripping because i thought that my english paper isu thing was due today
but it's actually due on monday which means that i can actually go to class ahaha.
i also need to go to law or watch the Shawshank Redemption on my own.
apparently it's a good movieanyways.

so this weekend,
iii have no idea as to what i'm doing.
i think that saturday i'm going to mississauga to go make some money so that i can buy my new phone.
i was on youtube yesterday and i was watching the demo for the new nokia phone,
it's a touchscreen + qwerty keyboard.
ithink that i'm going to buy it.
either that or the blackberry pearl.
red and black please. :]

everyone's blogging about what they want for christmas and i have a ton of things as well.

one of the new macbooks,
a new ipod,
a trip to montreal,
and of course my canon rebel xsi.

:D

but since i got so many things for my birthday i don't know if all of my items on my wishlist will actually come to me this year.

usually we have this big family dinner where my grandfather cooks for everyone and it's usually held at their house. i pretty much looked at this event as a tradition and this year, due to the negligence of my entire family and their lack of need for traditions, we're having it at some banquet hall and my grandfather isn't cooking the entire meal.
it's sad.

and i have a pretty bad headache now so i'm going to blog
later.
when i'm not so tired.
hmpf.

2008-12-03T16:15:00.003-05:00

This is going to be a pretty short blog due to the fact that I have to leave for work in a little bit and I'm preoccupied with Stickam atm.

Things are slowly getting better, slowly.
But I still feel like you don't want me to be included in anything.
I hope that it can all go back to normal someday,
maybe,
if we're lucky.

Meh, screwww this, I'm going to go play PS3. xD

2008-12-01T11:53:00.002-05:00

Today was...
well I'm surprised that I was even capable of getting out of bed today.
I was on the phone until the wee hours of the morning with Mike Samsa who absolutely refused to let me get off.
AND
I was watching Twilight over and over and over again.
Though the movie isn't as good as I had hoped, it was still reasonable.

I dyed my hair black again, winter colours.

Nothing interesting has really been happening, it's bothering me.
Uh.
Shit.
Ahaha.
I will blog later, hopefully something interesting happens in Science.

<3

2008-11-29T00:57:00.003-05:00

Today I went to school and I skipped fourth period to see

Overall I would say that the movie was excellent but most people said that they didn't enjoy it due to the fact that they hadn't read the books. Luckily for me, I have read and I own the entire series so it was absolutely astonishing to me.
I especially liked the part when they made out for the first time because in the book the author wrote the scene as if it were the hottest thing imaginable.
Trust me, it was, I nearly died on the inside, it was so amazing.
Though I had heard negative reviews from all of my friends, I believe that it's one of those movies that you have to see for yourself to form your own opinion rather than taking the advice of someone else.
Aside from seeing the movie, I especially enjoyed hanging out with N because we went to Second Cup, had our coffee/hot chocolate and then we went to the theatre and played DDR for a good twenty minutes.

So, I have a kitten and she's the most adorable thing on the face of the planet, but not as adorable her Daddy :].
Her name is Charleigh and she's going to grow up to be an adorable fat kitty.

Aside from that I've finally found my meaning.
I know that somewhere in the middle I had lost my way but someone helped me come back to life again and I couldn't thank him enough.
It's amazing because every second that I'm without him I don't even see the need to laugh or the need to be happy because all I want is to be with him, he's constantly on my mind.
I leave functions early so that I can come home to him and have him hold me, I take time out of my day to stare at his picture on my wall, he's just everything to me.
Everything.
And no matter how many times I change the paragraphs that I write about him,
and no matter how many times we argue or end up hating each other,
my heart will always and forever be his.
Ever mine, ever thine, ever ours.

<3

2008-11-27T16:47:00.001-05:00

I definitely have to plug this,
as usual.

2008-11-25T16:59:00.002-05:00

On Saturday I went to American Apparel and I went shopping :]
I spent a total of $200 on five articles of clothing but it was so worth it, you have absolutely no idea.

The fifth image isn't exactly what I bought but it's like that, with the stripes. Except it's longer and the back is most likely different.

It was so awkward being in there because my mother kept complaining about how expensive things were and the store was pretty busy, I almost died of shame. It was also pretty awkward because I saw a girl that I knew when I went to Erindale and she was working cash. I've decided that I want to work at Japan Camera for co-op since Blacks won't hire me for both, ahaha.

Yesterday in Science class was absolutely terrible because everyone was making such a big deal out of everything, I was so embarrassed. Due to my overwhelming embarrassment I went into the back room with D and M and we were working on our projects. When I came back out S came up to me and was talking about how DE was saying shit about me but no one in the class really listened to anything that he had to say because he's a chauvinistic pig.
Literally.
Needless to say, I was still pretty upset about it all and I think I may actually cut his penis off.

I bought this really cute purse from some Indian store yesterday for only ten dollars, I was so stoked! It's a camo green with pompoms on the handle and it's knitted, I love my little purse.

I remembered what I had to do, I have to figure out what exactly is making my LimeWire not work. It says that it's because of a firewall but I think that I need to manage something to do with ports as my Uncle had taught me on Sunday when we were at a family dinner.

Ew okay so! When S, K, and I were walking to our bus after school I looked at the ground, of course, and I noticed that there was a chunky substance, of course it was nothing other than vomit. S immediately started gagging and I started freaking out since I have an intense paranoia of puke(ing) and I ran, so fast. Ahaha.

This morning was great because I was Stickam for most of the morning, but I need to go do a face mask and a few other things, so, I will try to blog later, if not then enjoy this one. :]
xx

2008-11-22T22:28:00.000-05:00

In the night, I hear 'em talk,
the coldest story ever told
Somewhere far along this road, she lost her soul to a man so heartless..
How could you be so heartless?
Oh.. How could you be so heartless?

2008-11-20T21:24:00.002-05:00

Well lets just say that the past...
well, actually scratch that because I can't even remember the last time I blogged.

Anyways, I got a job, I've been driving a lot, and I've been hanging out with my friends constantly and pretty much living the life that I've always wanted to live. It's not really anything that interesting, really, trust me.
What is interesting is that I finally finished my photography portfolio and I met with a friend who has a friend who owns an art gallery and this friend of a friend wants to do a showing of my work. If this works out I don't even have to think about doing co-op for photography because I'll already have my foot in the door.

Last night I was up until 1 in the morning texting random people and then J decides to call me. We were discussing his current endeavours and we both realized something, that he's a gigantic man whore. He came to me basically complaining about how his girlfriend broke up with him so he went to San Diego and slept with another girl who turned out to be over obsessive (we'll refer to her as the one night stand). So, the one night stand asked him to take her home with him and for whatever reason he obliged and now she's staying at his house for the entire week. He called from work and was just going on and on about how he wished that he should have thought twice before he took her back with him. I didn't know what to say because that's the usual behaviour for J, sleeping around with random women and then getting involved with more than one of them. Anyways, his exgirlfriend was talking about how she wanted to get back together with him and how she mised him...but he didn't realize how much he loved her until she was gone.
Needless to say, I told him to cut both of the girls loose because his exgirlfriend wasn't really a brilliant example of a perfect girlfriend.

As for my life...it's just full of the usual.
It was odd because earlier this week Stevey tried talking to me on AIM again but by the time I had the chance to type '...?' he signed offline so I will most likely never figure out what exactly it was that he had to say. Though once you think about it I believe that we all know what he was going to say and it was going to be about Lyndie, of course.

I still believe that I'm being cheated on, by the way, and quite frankly I do not care if Dakota gets upset about this when he reads this because I have no one else to talk to about this. I've done everything for Dakota, I deleted all of my friends out of my life (keep in mind that they're all quite upset about that), I refrain from engaging in conversations with particular males, and I keep a smile on my face and my lips sealed when the time calls for it. Do you want to know what I get in return?
www.myspace.com/lindimire
www.myspace.com/ihatehatred

That will explain any questions.

My birthday was alright, I completely forgot that I hadn't blogged on that day. Anyways, I woke up and my parents immediately took me shopping. They bought me clothes and shoes, which I'm completely stoked about.
Want to know why?
Because I got my Uggs!
Even though I promised myself that I would never buy them, I did.
Later on in the day we had a family dinner and I blew out cake, cut it, opened presents and watched football. I was expecting to get my camera for my birthday but of course I wasn't lucky enough to receive that.
Not that I'm complaining though, because I did get a lot of money (five hundred dollars) and an American Apparel gift certificate which definitely made my day.

Recently I've been hanging out with friends a lot, right? Well, it's making my life so much easier to deal with, not to mention that since I've made more friends at school I've been attending it regularly. I mean, I've been to school every day for the past week. I'm actually proud of myself for once in my life and nothing can deter my thoughts.

I was lucky enough to get off early because I didn't have to close, but I think that I'm being 'kidnapped' and forced to go clubbing downtown because my 'group' of friends aren't going to school tomorrow and we're all staying over at S' house.

I love life.
:]

2008-11-15T12:11:00.004-05:00

I'm turning seventeen in less than 24 hours, and it's not as exciting as I would hope it would be. I honestly have nothing to celebrate this year except for getting older. I mean, last year I could celebrate the fact that I could get pierced on my own and usually most people celebrate their seventeenth by acquiring their G2 but I don't even have my G1!

My birthday weekend thus far:
Friday - Argument, implied that I'm a slut, yelled at, day out with friends ruined.
Saturday - Having to deal with a 'drunk' boyfriend who's apparently 'coming to see me' and 'driving drunk.' Having to deal with being lied to, having to deal with his shady 'best friend', having to deal with him apparently taking 'prozac' or whatever. Aha.

Yesterday I went to first period to write a test and then I came home to hang out with my Mom and then I went out with a few friends afterwards. While I was waiting at the bus terminal at Shopper's World this tweaker came up to me and started a conversation. I swear, he must have been on some hardcore drugs because he kept talking about how we get a new set of lungs every seven years and how we, as humans, 'piss and shit out all of the impurities in our system' and our conversation ended with him telling me to 'keep smoking'. I felt like crying and laughing and leaving him simultaneously. I felt like crying because he reminded me so much of myself a few years ago and I felt like I was feeding his delusions. What if what I said made him actually believe that we really DO get a new set of lungs every seven years? What if that night, he attempted to dig out his lungs, thinking that that day marked his seventh year? I wanted to laugh because the things that he was saying were so ridiculous and I wanted to leave because he was terrifying. He asked me if I had a cigarette and I told him that the one that I had just smoked was my last one so he proceeded by trying to take it off of the end of my boot. I simply stated that he shouldn't smoke that because it was on the floor and indeed under the foot of my boot. He wouldn't listen though.
I hate drugs and I hate what they do to people.

I hate it, so much.

2008-11-13T12:02:00.002-05:00

Another blog coming straight from my photography class, as usual.

There was a co-op meeting today in the GTR and we were discussing co-op placements and a bunch of shit like that.

Apparently, they have a photography position with the Mississauga News and I would be responsible for taking photographs of public events and a bunch of stuff like that.

I think that would be fun, and especially good for my future resume but unfortunately, I have no previous work experience...

And I think that I'm competing with every student in Peel for this one position, so I HAVE to get it.

My birthday's on Sunday and I'm pretty stoked, I'm curious as to what my parents bought me and like, everyone else. :D

Friday I'm going down to Mississauga during the day to hang out with MS and then later on I'm hanging out with a bunch of my old friends.

Saturday I'm supposed to be going to Aladdin's with a bunch of other friends to smoke some...sheesha? I don't even know what the hell it is, but apparently it's a good time and I'm always up for new experiences, so why not?

Sunday, I'm assuming we're having a family dinner, if not, then my parents will probably take me out...

I'm more likely to do the family thing on Saturday night though.

I'm pretty upset that my birthday's on a Sunday, I would have had a party otherwise.

But I think that I'm going to keep the partying down to a minimum for my nineteenth, which is going to be far more exciting.

Needless to say, I have eleven minutes until my next class so I really should get going...

I will most likely write more tonight :]

<3